long time

[babe20_01]

I know I havent been on here in a really long time but I need to get some things off my chest and I know I have good friends that will listen. I have been sober 5 months know and its a miracle in inself but here lately I have been having a hard time with it I miss the going out and hanging out with friends dont get me wrong I love it really cause I get to be a big part of my family again and its great. I am having a emotional break day here this past week my niece is getting so big and I havent seen her yet and it sicks I have been able to see all my cousins kids but the one that gets to call me Auntie I havent been able to meet and it sucks. I got to see my mom this last weekend and it was amazing but I really miss my dad and I hope I get to see him soon I miss him so much. Ok a little off subject but I am in a relationship and I havent really told anyone and not sure why maybe I dont want to get my hopes up I dunno anyways I am dating a guy name Mike have been for 5 months he has a son named Austin who is 6 and he is awesome. We only really hang out on the weekends cause we live 66 miles apart and it kinda sucks but its ok I guess he is a great person but our sex life isnt the greatest and I think it is more me then him I am not into the same stuff I use to be into when I was with Jared and its kinda bothers me and I am not sure how to fix it any ideas. Anyways of I think I said enough

I love you guys miss you tons