i had a feeling...
no seether for me tomorrow. instead i get to work. not only all of tomorrow, but all of wednesday as well, which i was supposed to have off. basically, another six days in a row of working. yes, over time, but not by choice. *major sighage*
i almost started crying when i found out. not because i was like, necessarily sad or anything, but out of frustration and exhaustion. but i couldn't let myself do that. one, i was still at work, two, my boss was the doctor (he's there on mondays), and three...if i started..i just knew that all these other things would come in to my head that would add on to the cruddy feeling that i had, and i don't need to waste energy crying about those things. it's just not worth it. and they aren't things i need to cry about, either. not now, anyways.
regardless of all that, i went to the gym, paid my $175 for the month (a nice $50 discount) and had my ass worked by coach. it's nice to be back. it's nice to feel good about myself and my body...something that i haven't felt for quite sometime, to be honest.
i know im gonna feel all bummed again tomorrow...wednesday as well...but i'll do my best not to i suppose. we'll see how that works.
someone call me so i have a reason to smile tomorrow? please? wow that sounds pathetic 0_o
i almost started crying when i found out. not because i was like, necessarily sad or anything, but out of frustration and exhaustion. but i couldn't let myself do that. one, i was still at work, two, my boss was the doctor (he's there on mondays), and three...if i started..i just knew that all these other things would come in to my head that would add on to the cruddy feeling that i had, and i don't need to waste energy crying about those things. it's just not worth it. and they aren't things i need to cry about, either. not now, anyways.
regardless of all that, i went to the gym, paid my $175 for the month (a nice $50 discount) and had my ass worked by coach. it's nice to be back. it's nice to feel good about myself and my body...something that i haven't felt for quite sometime, to be honest.
i know im gonna feel all bummed again tomorrow...wednesday as well...but i'll do my best not to i suppose. we'll see how that works.
someone call me so i have a reason to smile tomorrow? please? wow that sounds pathetic 0_o