Weeping Willows
It's hard to make a change. I toss and turn each night trying to think of ways to alter my reality. So I can be a better person, one that shares, someone who doesn't judge, ridicule and hurt, one who isn't selfish, someone better...someone not me.
They say visualize it and things will happen. That when you think about it, when you see yourself in that position. When you dream of dreams, it's the first step to that realization, of a better tomorrow. But I think those well meaning souls forgot to add, that for anything to happen luck, perserverance and patience is imperative.
I know, whine, and whine forever and nothing will happen. But the thing is to be at the top means sacrifices. To get to the next round means folding into the crowd. Stepping into other people, changing, switching sides, and compromising yourself into fitting in.
I dont know what to do, frankly. I have a definite idea in my head. Of better days and overflowing contentment. But I'm at a loss, once again. What to do, how to do, when to make the first step.
I've been writing these thoughts, these same rambles over and over, and still, I've done nothing to change my reality. However, this time, I really want to experience what it's like to try, to know where to go, and to actually get there.
First, I have to run and buy hope in box full of hordes. I'm running on empty more than usual.
They say visualize it and things will happen. That when you think about it, when you see yourself in that position. When you dream of dreams, it's the first step to that realization, of a better tomorrow. But I think those well meaning souls forgot to add, that for anything to happen luck, perserverance and patience is imperative.
I know, whine, and whine forever and nothing will happen. But the thing is to be at the top means sacrifices. To get to the next round means folding into the crowd. Stepping into other people, changing, switching sides, and compromising yourself into fitting in.
I dont know what to do, frankly. I have a definite idea in my head. Of better days and overflowing contentment. But I'm at a loss, once again. What to do, how to do, when to make the first step.
I've been writing these thoughts, these same rambles over and over, and still, I've done nothing to change my reality. However, this time, I really want to experience what it's like to try, to know where to go, and to actually get there.
First, I have to run and buy hope in box full of hordes. I'm running on empty more than usual.