ccutting thigs down
im cutting a lot of thigs short, to many people hurtting me and stabing me in the back, so buhbye to the old!!! i am still gonna trash the moments of my friends that i used to have, but the bast is to just leave it behind, now i am happy, i have andy, and i have joe, my family, and everything a girl could want!!!! me and my dad r getting closer, me and andy r getting through all of our problems, witch i don't think there is many, just while, just complicated ad big, i am growning up, by the end of this school year, i will b 18 out of high school and going to colege moving away, and yet i still feel like that 15 year old girl that fell so hard for a boy, not thinking or even let alone careing about what is gonna happen, all the what ifs crose my mind everyday, what if andy leaves me where would i b, what if jimmy dosen't leave me and andy alone, what if my dad starts drinking really bad agian, what if libby gets wrose than she already is, what will happen to the baby, what if my nice is addicted to drugs when she is born, what if me and my mom never could talk agian. i never use to worry about thins like this, it was all about how great things where at that moment, and that is i thik what is wrong with me, i never just havbe a day to myself, or just me and andy talking the whole time, and haveing an indepth conversation, or i don't no i guess it is my fault i never want to talk, but i think it is because if i scrach the surfface to much i will realize something i don't want to, something about my family i don't want to i guess that makes me a bad reporter because i don't want to find out something bad, i wish the world was bad oput of marshmellows, the only thing that i get up for is to c andy, but everyday it is the same thing day after day!!! i work than i go home (andys) than i have to go to my dads, than i either sneak over, or go and wake him up in the morning, than go to work agian, and on the days off while than i get to clean or something!!!! fun fun, but this is just me getting things off of my chest, i am just so happpy about me and andy, and i can't wait for skoo a lil change!!!!