weakness in the walls.
dumbass people.
we're surrounded... at least they are funny to stare at.
sometimes.
...
how can somebody knowingly disrespect someone else and not feel any remorse? I am truly astounded at my best friend and his lack of regard for my feelings. self-centered inconsiderate prick. and to top it all off, after confronting him and letting him know just how much bullshit it was, all he had to say was "ok". and I think I'm finally fed up with him.
it's all compounded and the icing has been spread on the cake and I'm seriously ill with how much I put up with because I love you. and now it's clear as ever.
all you fucking think about is yourself.
no wonder you ended up with countless felonies and practically ruining your life. you never listened to anybody that cared about you, because you're selfish and all you have ever been worried about is getting fucked up...
or laid.
and I held you so high, and stuck up for you so much, and stood by you through everything.
and you have told me countless times that I'm more family to you than your own parents.
so how could you just blatantly not give a shit about anything I said???
especially after I explained it all to you.
after you have been the one I confided in about everything... Literally.
so you knew exactly what you were doing, and you did it anyway. fucking asshole.
so I feel justified in saying fuck you, and choosing to not put up with your shit anymore. I even tolerated you over my girlfriend's complaints... and I should've never did that to begin with. but you were my boy. and we were supposed to be there for each other.
and I'm realizing that I was the only one that was there for you all the time. you were only there for me sometimes.
I can't stand it.
I'm so angry I could just punch a baby.
I'd punch you but I already did that. and then you had the audacity to whine about how I "used your body to test for weaknesses in the wall" and socked you in the gut full force.
little.
bitch.
you'd think that you could be a man about anything but you can't. you can't even own up to your own mistakes and apologize.
what.
the.
fuck.
maybe it's because I'm so willing to apologize when I know I'm wrong or even when I don't feel wrong but when I've hurt somebody. and you don't know how... or just don't care to try. so I'm not trying anymore, and strangely I'm ok with that.
so maybe that says something about how little I care... No. wrong. I did care so much.
so it must mean that you really just fucked up enough for me to throw it all in the trash...
and here is my least favorite trait.
when I feel repeatedly and seriously slighted by somebody I can just stop caring in an instant. I have never understood why, but I can. and it makes me feel heartless. when I broke up with my ex I had put up with so much shit that I was seriously heartless about it.
cold.
maybe I should warn those I love that I have a tendency to drop them in less than a moments notice.
nah, because I don't want them to treat me right cause they know I won't put up with bullshit... I want to be treated right because I am loved by them.
and because they genuinely care.
nuff said.