I AM STILL ALIVE FOR THOSE WHO CARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok. today is february 11, 2007. the time is 0122 in the morrining. i am at the computer right now. well in body but in mind you do not want to go there. so what is new with me. well. i dropped off some papers for the Darien fire department, i am taking a EMT class in westport for the next 5 months. trying to keep everyone happy. trying to get some much need sleep. working almost full time at the YMCA. teaching swim class at the YMCA(beginers,intermediate,and advance). mite be head lifeguard at the YMCA. be an ass.scoutmaster for two boyscout troops and a extra adult for another one. being in charge of about 200 people for Order of the Arrow. keep my freinds happy. keep out of trouble. try to work out. try to found out what is wrong with me. find time to flirt.
for the last two week i have been very busy. my time went from not busy to very busy within two day. after that i been lacking sleep. doing the carzest things like work a 7 to 8 hour day at the YMCA with only 4 hours of sleep. i think this is why i am feeling depressed so much now. been having problems at work and every where eles.
today we went to wicked fair down in NJ.. it was good but it did not feel right this year. I did not have a gurl to spend money on. so i gave some money to little one and his brother.little one popped a cherry.(not sex, a gurl puts a cherry ball in her between her boobs and he licked it out). the brother(eric) entered a contest and put money in him to win.. but yea that was it.. walked around so some people i knew and talked to other. then boom out of some luck i turned my head and someone was there.. last track of my mind then popped right back on track.. so yea that was my day at fair. oo yea i had a CHEEZE-NIPE box tied to my belt..alot of females got a kick out of it.
i do not have much luck with people of the oppest sex.. i can talk to them and get a number but that is it.. after the number i call them once or twice, try to get a date but never dose. so that is why i keep busy.and to keep away from the drugs..
as for scouts.. my home troop dose not like me... when most of them.. i am very into scout and camping.. i love to camp and hike. i am not like in troop 19 but as for troop 36 they like me. so i mite stay with them for some time and do not worry about 19.
DEPESSEION- i think it came back to bug me agian. i was doing so well now i have mood swing in the blink of an eye