Im sorta back

[baars_n_potsy]

Well my internet is out and has been for a long time. Whats up with me? Not a whole lot besides being grounded and not really understanding whats happening with my friends. I spend most of my time nostalgic for this summer which was one of the best of my life. The youth was focused i was focused and my friends were all friends. Now however i feel like i have to watch what i say and do to make sure no one takes offense to it. I also have been feeling rather paranoid with all the backstabbing going on. I mean whats going on. We were all friends not to long ago and now i spend a lot of my time trying to figure out what the recent conflict is about. A lot of it is accidental situations, but then again a whole lot of it is people gossiping and quarraling over stuff that doesnt even matter enough to talk about. It really upsets me and then i think about pastor bryan leaving and i realize that although we had been fighting for a while before that it all became worse when he left. And that made me realize that we had been depending on pastor bryan more than we had on our beliefs. Which shames me quite a bit.
Besides that iv been thinking about when i become ungrounded if im coming back to the youth group anyway. Im not sure i want to go to something and have my hopes smashed again by the foolishness of our group is acting. I dont know.

potsy