Seemingly
It seems that with every streak of lightness, darkness's shadow always prevails...
I've lost the war, congratulations! Are you fucking happy! You have succeeded in making your life better by making mine worse. You've taken, no, you've stripped me of my pride, of my integrity, of my goddamn smile, and for what? I don't know.
You've taken from me my best friend, a guy who was always there, a guy who I was attached to at the hip, and who is now a guy who won't even hang out or go to lunch with me anymore. You've stripped me of my other friends, and you know what, I probably deserve it.
I deserve every fucking blow!
I always deserve it. I deserve this loneliness. Where no one calls. No ones wants to hang out. No one wants to be around me. And I can see why. I am a bitch. Goddamnit, I became what I swore I would never become.
It's suprising to me that I even have such a wonderful guy.
I have lost every battle thus far, and now, I have lost the war, and it saddens me. Somebody just fucking slap me silly, wake me up from this horrid nightmare that has haunted me for too long.
Wake me up or kill me!
I am torn, I am broken, I am tired. And of all the horrendous feelings that I feel, I feel lonely. I am the epitamy of it. My only sanctuary is the weekend, and even then it's two days....two fucking days.
Its sad to realize that you only have one person, maybe two, who you can still fall back on. Other than that, no one is here to catch me. And what if those close ties fall too....
I'm over, finished, the Sarah everyone once knew as the social butterfly with a jillion friends will be gone.
This sucks
Lifes a bitch
I've lost the war, congratulations! Are you fucking happy! You have succeeded in making your life better by making mine worse. You've taken, no, you've stripped me of my pride, of my integrity, of my goddamn smile, and for what? I don't know.
You've taken from me my best friend, a guy who was always there, a guy who I was attached to at the hip, and who is now a guy who won't even hang out or go to lunch with me anymore. You've stripped me of my other friends, and you know what, I probably deserve it.
I deserve every fucking blow!
I always deserve it. I deserve this loneliness. Where no one calls. No ones wants to hang out. No one wants to be around me. And I can see why. I am a bitch. Goddamnit, I became what I swore I would never become.
It's suprising to me that I even have such a wonderful guy.
I have lost every battle thus far, and now, I have lost the war, and it saddens me. Somebody just fucking slap me silly, wake me up from this horrid nightmare that has haunted me for too long.
Wake me up or kill me!
I am torn, I am broken, I am tired. And of all the horrendous feelings that I feel, I feel lonely. I am the epitamy of it. My only sanctuary is the weekend, and even then it's two days....two fucking days.
Its sad to realize that you only have one person, maybe two, who you can still fall back on. Other than that, no one is here to catch me. And what if those close ties fall too....
I'm over, finished, the Sarah everyone once knew as the social butterfly with a jillion friends will be gone.
This sucks
Lifes a bitch