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i've known. there are many things i seem to predict. without thought, some words just come out of my mouth, and not until after they've been spoken do i really think and realize how badly i wish i didn't even have the opportunity to say such things. but every time this happens, those words end up becoming true.
ignore the complication. it's simple really.
i told you so.
cliche and yet there are no other words.
but whatever. i guess there's nothing that could be done. a very special someone reminded me today that you just need to Forget about the things that you can't change and dig yourself deep into things that actually are in your control.
i guess i just always think that there's a slight chance i still can control something. i just need to learn that i'm wrong. once i've lost control, someone else then takes over and there's no replacing them once they've replaced you in a specific situation. so forget about it. forget them. move on. i just need to dwell on things that i actually can control in order to make myself happy.
i have a pen pal. :-) im excited.
and i have a friend. a true friend. and a fucking road trip in the summer. :-D yessss. i can't wait til it gets warm again.
i can't wait to go back to the city and leave this place behind.
i miss professor conard. i can't believe i'm foolish enough to not have signed up for one of his classes this spring semester. i miss his knowledge and his depth and his silly little saying and his insomnia and stories of his only companion, his cat.
damnit. i need to be in one of his classes again. most days, although i only had his class two days a week, for the longest time he was the only thing that made me smile.
lies lies lies lies lies. keep repeating it. keep that in mind. you don't even know the truth. most people don't know the truth. so claim nothing. and if they do. lies. it's all just a fucking Lie.
I'm keeping that in mind.
ignore the complication. it's simple really.
i told you so.
cliche and yet there are no other words.
but whatever. i guess there's nothing that could be done. a very special someone reminded me today that you just need to Forget about the things that you can't change and dig yourself deep into things that actually are in your control.
i guess i just always think that there's a slight chance i still can control something. i just need to learn that i'm wrong. once i've lost control, someone else then takes over and there's no replacing them once they've replaced you in a specific situation. so forget about it. forget them. move on. i just need to dwell on things that i actually can control in order to make myself happy.
i have a pen pal. :-) im excited.
and i have a friend. a true friend. and a fucking road trip in the summer. :-D yessss. i can't wait til it gets warm again.
i can't wait to go back to the city and leave this place behind.
i miss professor conard. i can't believe i'm foolish enough to not have signed up for one of his classes this spring semester. i miss his knowledge and his depth and his silly little saying and his insomnia and stories of his only companion, his cat.
damnit. i need to be in one of his classes again. most days, although i only had his class two days a week, for the longest time he was the only thing that made me smile.
lies lies lies lies lies. keep repeating it. keep that in mind. you don't even know the truth. most people don't know the truth. so claim nothing. and if they do. lies. it's all just a fucking Lie.
I'm keeping that in mind.