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I'm one who likes to believe that what is meant to be will find a way. I don't hold any great strong unseeable force responsible for that. I'm not pinning it on 'fate'. But I believe that people themselves can make such things happen. Even moreso, people can't avoid letting such things happen. Love is not a force we can fight against. We can stray away from it for so very long, but eventually we're going to get sucked in and set in the path we knew we saw coming for years before.
Anyway, I just know it's been going this way. And honestly, I wish no one ever had to hold back at all. It's such a shame. And now that I'm set on my own views of morality and virtuous behavoir, I know what's right and what cannot be denied, but I also wonder what will make the one who experiences a downfall happy as well. Has anything ever made him happy? Did she ever? She must have at some point. But not now. And so here it goes. She obviously can't choose the man who doesn't know what makes him happy over the one who has never been happier than the few months he gets every 2 to 10 years he gets to see her. That's something undeniable. And as much as I fear the pain of the previous, I know how much pain the latter has been feeling for the entirety of his life. He has been waiting for her this entire time. And there were so many moments when he got his hopes set so high and he really almost had her, was only a few paces away, but he fell short and timing set her with a man he knew could Never love her the way he Always will, just because he had her first.
Fuck my problems. There's a much greater trauma to be looked after. And the happiness of these three people are the most important things to me right now, as well as school.
Make yourself as happy as can be while also building the joy of those around you.
Anyway, I just know it's been going this way. And honestly, I wish no one ever had to hold back at all. It's such a shame. And now that I'm set on my own views of morality and virtuous behavoir, I know what's right and what cannot be denied, but I also wonder what will make the one who experiences a downfall happy as well. Has anything ever made him happy? Did she ever? She must have at some point. But not now. And so here it goes. She obviously can't choose the man who doesn't know what makes him happy over the one who has never been happier than the few months he gets every 2 to 10 years he gets to see her. That's something undeniable. And as much as I fear the pain of the previous, I know how much pain the latter has been feeling for the entirety of his life. He has been waiting for her this entire time. And there were so many moments when he got his hopes set so high and he really almost had her, was only a few paces away, but he fell short and timing set her with a man he knew could Never love her the way he Always will, just because he had her first.
Fuck my problems. There's a much greater trauma to be looked after. And the happiness of these three people are the most important things to me right now, as well as school.
Make yourself as happy as can be while also building the joy of those around you.