Playing The Game
Well what a turn around today is.
We talked for ages last night, covered everything, nothing was left unsaid....that is one thing I value with my relationship with him we can say anything to eachother calmly and without fighting. I told him I was close to leaving and I asked him point blank, will you fight for this relationship, for us and he said yes and gave me a big cuddle.
I feel better now, I feel like we are stronger from this and as long as we stick to what we decided and discussed changes wise that we will only move on from this.
I also did explain to him that I feel like the love is gone between us and he said he had noticed this too. We agreed to start doing more stuff together, finding common interests and just in general being abit more affectionate to eachother and less old married couple. I'll be honest, Im a woman I need cuddles and random kisses from time to time....that's just how I am.
Hanging out with my sister tonight. Not sure what we are doing, she said something about wanting her hair plaited in like lots of little dreadlocky plaits like I sometimes do so thats cool, she can come to mine and I'll do her hair in front of the telly. Craig is also meant to be coming down so that means I will definately need to go and buy more smokey stuff as the last 2 times Craig has been down he's asked me to roll him a J and he has a ball. Great to have a smoking buddy, who knows maybe Jess will have a toke too?
Making spag bog for tea with garlic bread. Beauty of doing this is that if Craig and Jess want to stay for tea I can bulk it up with more pasta and add things to the sauce but if it ends up being just bren and I then that works too. Not sure what time or what the arrangements are for them both so I'll play tonight by ear. Part of what I agreed in our talk was to ease up abit on being so pedantic and try and go with the flow with life in general abit more. Im about to embark on a business selling herbal highs, Ironically Im abit of a hippy so I need to start chilling out abit more.
Anyways thats it for now...
We talked for ages last night, covered everything, nothing was left unsaid....that is one thing I value with my relationship with him we can say anything to eachother calmly and without fighting. I told him I was close to leaving and I asked him point blank, will you fight for this relationship, for us and he said yes and gave me a big cuddle.
I feel better now, I feel like we are stronger from this and as long as we stick to what we decided and discussed changes wise that we will only move on from this.
I also did explain to him that I feel like the love is gone between us and he said he had noticed this too. We agreed to start doing more stuff together, finding common interests and just in general being abit more affectionate to eachother and less old married couple. I'll be honest, Im a woman I need cuddles and random kisses from time to time....that's just how I am.
Hanging out with my sister tonight. Not sure what we are doing, she said something about wanting her hair plaited in like lots of little dreadlocky plaits like I sometimes do so thats cool, she can come to mine and I'll do her hair in front of the telly. Craig is also meant to be coming down so that means I will definately need to go and buy more smokey stuff as the last 2 times Craig has been down he's asked me to roll him a J and he has a ball. Great to have a smoking buddy, who knows maybe Jess will have a toke too?
Making spag bog for tea with garlic bread. Beauty of doing this is that if Craig and Jess want to stay for tea I can bulk it up with more pasta and add things to the sauce but if it ends up being just bren and I then that works too. Not sure what time or what the arrangements are for them both so I'll play tonight by ear. Part of what I agreed in our talk was to ease up abit on being so pedantic and try and go with the flow with life in general abit more. Im about to embark on a business selling herbal highs, Ironically Im abit of a hippy so I need to start chilling out abit more.
Anyways thats it for now...