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Greetings and salutations to you all. I am well aware that I have not posted anything on my LJ in 3 months and I bring forth to you the usual excuses of life, time blah blah blah.
As you would expect alot has changed within 3 months since that last entry I did standing at Bayfit's reception area on a cold and miserable Wednesday morning, both for the better and at times for the worst. Below is a quick update on the shinanigans and mess for which I call life.
Firstly and most importantly has to do with the location for which I write this journal in, which is now Komatsu Forklift Australia in Laverton North. That's right, after months of searching I found a new job and am away from Bayfit. I now work in a small office within an industrial area doing service admin and some reception work. I am also now on $38,000pa instead of the $35,000 I was on at bayfit which is extremely pleasing. The job is stressful at times and requires abit more of brain functionality from me than BayFit ever did and I even now deal slightly with some accounts payable aspects of the business. My days are now monday to friday 8:30-4:30 and they go by so much quicker now, it's great.
So with that in mind I now have abit more cash to splash around. That combined with a fantastic tax return this year of $5,000 has finally prompted me to do something I have kept on the back burner for many years and that is take a trip overseas. Next year I am taking Brendon and myself to Osaka Japan for a week to experience the cherry blossum festival. We are so excited, lots of planning to do between now and then but going to be a once in a lifetime experience. It does mean we push back getting our own place by a little bit but hopefully not by too much.
Speaking of houses the other aspect besides my job that has made a change for the better is we have moved! Still renting sadly however for basically the same amount we are in a much bigger place and still within Altona Meadows! The house is great, the move was a nightmare and took a whole weekend and filled 2 skips of our junk that we didn't want. At least it has finally prompted Brendon into seeing what hassle hording junk creates and he has vowed not to clutter up this house. We will be having a big house warming party in about a month or so, we never had one at the old place as it was too small for even a gathering most nights but definately will with this one.
Healthwise I am not the best I could be but Im on the right track to a healthy body and mind. I have officially given up the fags and its been surprisingly easy this time. I will admit I am not doing it entirely on my own, have bitten the bullet and gotten the doctor to put me on the Champix tablets but the way I see it is if I am going to do this once and for all I need to hit the ground running and these are working exceptionally for me. I have ceased PT with Tim for two reasons. Firstly I feel with my weight I am at the stage I planned to get to with our sessions, I know Tim would have liked to take me even further but I am doing this for myself and if I am finally happy with my body then that is that. I also feel that Tim isn't reliable at times and Im better to just do what feels right to me and keep myself going, which is what I plan on doing. Tim has written me a program to do myself and as for my diet I have decided that although I do not want to become fast whilst not smoking I also do not need the added stress of calorie counting and as long as I burn off what I eat I should be fine.
Another big one healthwise is one I have actually just decided this morning and I am very excited to announce and follow through with this. I am pretty much giving up drinking!
I will allow myself one or two on special occaisions but other than that nothing. It has dawned on me that I don't have the control to "cut down" and after many failed attempts at this I think pretty much giving up is my only option. Another weekend has gone by where I drank too much, embarrassed myself and upset Brendon and Im sick of it. Im sick of feeling worthless and guilty the next day, Im sick of having to apologise for my actions and Im sick of people just expecting me to behave this way. Yes I am doing it for myself don't worry but I also want to see the look on people's faces when I follow through with this. I want to be treated by myself and others with respect and I think this will be the only way.
So now that I have given you thoughts to ponder I will head out for some lunch.
I vow to make these entries a regular occurrance again as I will definately need a place to vent as I quit ciggies and booze on my own.
TTFN x x x