Another friday comes around.
Well another friday is upon us children, it is 3:48pm and the weather outside looks fantastic!
I can't wait to get outside and have a smoke lol how bad does that sound.
Yes I am smoking again, I actually quit for about 3-4 months, did it all by the book this time patches gum, counselling the works but I began to miss it again and before I knew it Brendon and I were up at the servo going halvies in a pack of peter styvies.
I will quit oneday, quit for good but at the moment Im just enjoying it too much. I've told my parents and they understand, dad was a tad disappointed but he understands.
Well now this weekend, what are the big plans for this weekend? Well tomorrow I might have a tiny little sleep in (probably till about 9ish, thats a sleep in for me lol) then I want to try and borrow dads lawn mower and get our lawns done, they need a trim again badly.
Then at 2pm if all goes well weather wise were all off to the Melbourne Show, I havent been to the show in years and this will be the first time with Brendon so it should be good.
Abit worried about Jess coming.
Yep she actually came back again, after the whole family specifically told her that if she went back to Wayne after all our efforts this time, she was never to contact this family again. Sure enough to nobody's surprise she did go back but then had the nerve to come running home when surprise surprise Wayne beat her to a pulp again!
Anyway Im worried about her coming because dad isn't speaking to her atm and because mum has welcomed her back with loving arms dads not speaking to mum either so her even just being there is going to make a good day as tense as all hell.
And Brendon's not crash hot on her anymore. It took alot for me to bring him round last time she came back but I think we can safely say she's lost his respect.
So Im going to be torn between two sides tomorrow which I am NOT looking forward to. God damn I just wanted to go to the show to buy showbags, go on rides and have a blast not to be a mediator for bloody world war 3.
Jess can't see how much she is ripping this family to shreds and I have to say everytime I see it effect mum and dad it makes me dislike her even more.
But anyway lets not dwell on the negatives when it's a beautiful friday afternoon shall we?
Anyways I am so rapt that this old LJ account still works....I have entries in here from 3 years ago (back when I was about 15 or 16) and I have to say reading them brought back memories and actually made me a little teary.
I was such a lonely unhappy child and it makes me so happy and grateful for what I am and have now.
The plan is to eventually print all these entries out and make them into a book of some kind so I can keep it forever and eventually if I have a daughter I'd like to pass it onto her, so she can know really who her mum once was and it may help her through her teenage years.
Ahh so whats the plan for tonight? Well i got just under an hour left here then I guess train it back to the good old western suburbs. Call mum to pick me up from the station (am without car again DON"T ASK!) and might see if I can hang out there for awhile, don't really feel like being home alone tonight, Ill end up just drinking and smoking lots out of boredom.
Anyway not much more to fill in today, Im sure I'll have plenty to update you upon Monday morning.
Have a good weekend!
xo