November 22nd 2011
'when the past calls, let it go to voicemail, it has nothing new to say'
-i've seen this quote on numerous status' recently. the first time i read it, i thought about it, related to it, and forgot about it. it wasn't til last night when i got a text from a friend asking me to guess who had called him. irony i suppose. perfect timing maybe. i guess i should expect any less than some form of past coming up to shake up my heart even more than it already has been recently. it's that time of year again i suppose. i can honestly say that i am glad that it's now and not months ago. there's no going back to my past anymore, my future is too promising with the path it's on to let the past ruin it.
i love the holidays, i love the holidays at work. i love hearing my customers talk about their family. even when they are cursing them, and complaining it's family, it's functionable, it's a connection that can never be taken away. i usually do this on facebook, but it seems more appropriate to do it in here. less people stalk this ;)
Thanksgiving means being thankful, so since it falls on the 24th, here are the 25 things i am most thankful for.
1. Kelsey Lynn Heintz- my world, and my bestfriend. the girl that gets me through the hardest days and will always be there. even when we don't agree on everything, we both support each other, and we never sugarcoat anything.
2. My Mother; Karen Lee Heintz- The amazing woman that brought me into this world, and has wanted numerous times to take me back out. The person i admire the most, even when we don't see eye to eye. The one who supports me even when she knows i'm mkaing a mistake. And even when i fail, she still loves me.
3. My Father; Charles Arthur Heintz- My savior. The one that has constantly bailed me out of trouble over and over again. The most amazing man that will ever walk on this planet. The one that loves me at my worst, and carries my through. The reason i have been able to make it this far in life.
4. John David Horrocks- my present and my future. One of the few people i trust with my entire life. The one who not only holds my hand, but holds my heart as well. The person i want to spend the rest of my life with, no questions ask. Even if we argue, there is no question of how much we love each other.
5. My Brother & Sister; Charles && Jennifer Heintz- the two that love me regaurdless of how much we see each other, because we know life is hectic and school&work sucks. The ones that see me on a random holiday or gathering and act like no time has past.
6. My Family- Sorry but our family is way too big to name, but my biggest supporters, and the ones that watched from scraping my knees to scraping deer with Gunner.
7. My Friends; JustinWPierce- in only a year you have come to see me at some of the worst times and you've been there to help me pick up the pieces. The one i call crying being over dramatic and stupid and you constantly make me laugh. the one that can read inbetween the letters in my texts.
8. My Friends; JenniferYanni- My sanity, and my secret keeper. The one that listens to my crazy mind and settles it. The one that supports every decision i make without judgement. THe one who allowed me into her family and a chance to befriend her (my) beautiful children.
9. My Friends; AlyssaAAndreadis- Four score and almost six years of friendship, and i woulsn't trade a moment for the world. The person who has cried with me, and laughed with me too. The person that can make me laugh with just her laugh. The inside jokes, secrets, and trouble we caused.
10 My Friends; MatthewHDCallo- The one who wouldn't let me rest my feet on his seat while he slept through study hall. And kept me on my toes all summer with dodge balls and bottle caps. The person that stayed up with me all night when i would eat too many icepops and have a sugar rush. The one that helped me through my first and second heartbreak. My Strength.
11. My Beautiful Car; Gunner T.- My savior in more ways than one. The one that listens to me vent, while we speed down back roads, only because he can't talk back. The one that lets me get away when i need to.
12. My Job; Smitty's Super Foodtown- The place that has been constant in my life for 5 years, 3 months, and 8 days. The only place that i absolutely love, and hate at the exact same time. THe place i bleed, sweat, and cry in on a daily basis.
13. School; Richard Stockton College of New Jersey- the place i dreamed of attending since i was 6 years old, handcuffed in the station and tortured by the Police Officers that scarred me for life. My safety net, and the holder of my dreams.
14. My Angel; MariaCParziale- even in your absence, you continue to guide me. when mom upsets me or we're fighting i constantly hear you in my head, just like when we would have coffee. walking down the halls of Stockton or in the lots i can hear your laugh and see you dancing.
15. My CellPhone; AllyJ- My saftey blanket from boredum. My ability to contact the people i need to, and get bothered by work and life. My secret holder ;).
16. My Computer; Penny- My connection to life, the one that truely holds my secrets locked away in lost files. the one that let's my vent endlessly, long after i stop making sense with my typing.
17. My Customers- The ones that keep me employeed, and entertained on a daily basis. The ones that complian and btich, but still admit to love seeing me behind the counter. The ones that constant visit, and keep my night going, the ones that forcce me to smile because customer service is my job.
18. My Past- Ironically, my past has made me who i am today, lessons learned. i would never regret anything i have done, because at that time it was exactly what i wanted to do. my past has taught me what i need in life, and that i deserve the best.
19. Facebook- without it i'd probably be bored out of my mind 90% of my day. between stalking, catching up, and reminising, it helpsthe day go by a little faster.
20. My Bed; including my pillow & blanket- The holders of my dreams, and protectors of my nightmares. The place i feel safest, during my darkest hours.
21. My Books- The alternate worlds that let me escape my reality and live the fantasy life through other characters.
22. My Hardships- The days i didn't think i'd make it through alive, because they make all the good days that much better, and that much more appriciated.
23. Time- the time i get to spend with everyone and everything i am thankful for.
24. Finally, You- the one stalking me, and reading me pour my heart out. The one that makes my writing actually worth it.
<3.
-i've seen this quote on numerous status' recently. the first time i read it, i thought about it, related to it, and forgot about it. it wasn't til last night when i got a text from a friend asking me to guess who had called him. irony i suppose. perfect timing maybe. i guess i should expect any less than some form of past coming up to shake up my heart even more than it already has been recently. it's that time of year again i suppose. i can honestly say that i am glad that it's now and not months ago. there's no going back to my past anymore, my future is too promising with the path it's on to let the past ruin it.
i love the holidays, i love the holidays at work. i love hearing my customers talk about their family. even when they are cursing them, and complaining it's family, it's functionable, it's a connection that can never be taken away. i usually do this on facebook, but it seems more appropriate to do it in here. less people stalk this ;)
Thanksgiving means being thankful, so since it falls on the 24th, here are the 25 things i am most thankful for.
1. Kelsey Lynn Heintz- my world, and my bestfriend. the girl that gets me through the hardest days and will always be there. even when we don't agree on everything, we both support each other, and we never sugarcoat anything.
2. My Mother; Karen Lee Heintz- The amazing woman that brought me into this world, and has wanted numerous times to take me back out. The person i admire the most, even when we don't see eye to eye. The one who supports me even when she knows i'm mkaing a mistake. And even when i fail, she still loves me.
3. My Father; Charles Arthur Heintz- My savior. The one that has constantly bailed me out of trouble over and over again. The most amazing man that will ever walk on this planet. The one that loves me at my worst, and carries my through. The reason i have been able to make it this far in life.
4. John David Horrocks- my present and my future. One of the few people i trust with my entire life. The one who not only holds my hand, but holds my heart as well. The person i want to spend the rest of my life with, no questions ask. Even if we argue, there is no question of how much we love each other.
5. My Brother & Sister; Charles && Jennifer Heintz- the two that love me regaurdless of how much we see each other, because we know life is hectic and school&work sucks. The ones that see me on a random holiday or gathering and act like no time has past.
6. My Family- Sorry but our family is way too big to name, but my biggest supporters, and the ones that watched from scraping my knees to scraping deer with Gunner.
7. My Friends; JustinWPierce- in only a year you have come to see me at some of the worst times and you've been there to help me pick up the pieces. The one i call crying being over dramatic and stupid and you constantly make me laugh. the one that can read inbetween the letters in my texts.
8. My Friends; JenniferYanni- My sanity, and my secret keeper. The one that listens to my crazy mind and settles it. The one that supports every decision i make without judgement. THe one who allowed me into her family and a chance to befriend her (my) beautiful children.
9. My Friends; AlyssaAAndreadis- Four score and almost six years of friendship, and i woulsn't trade a moment for the world. The person who has cried with me, and laughed with me too. The person that can make me laugh with just her laugh. The inside jokes, secrets, and trouble we caused.
10 My Friends; MatthewHDCallo- The one who wouldn't let me rest my feet on his seat while he slept through study hall. And kept me on my toes all summer with dodge balls and bottle caps. The person that stayed up with me all night when i would eat too many icepops and have a sugar rush. The one that helped me through my first and second heartbreak. My Strength.
11. My Beautiful Car; Gunner T.- My savior in more ways than one. The one that listens to me vent, while we speed down back roads, only because he can't talk back. The one that lets me get away when i need to.
12. My Job; Smitty's Super Foodtown- The place that has been constant in my life for 5 years, 3 months, and 8 days. The only place that i absolutely love, and hate at the exact same time. THe place i bleed, sweat, and cry in on a daily basis.
13. School; Richard Stockton College of New Jersey- the place i dreamed of attending since i was 6 years old, handcuffed in the station and tortured by the Police Officers that scarred me for life. My safety net, and the holder of my dreams.
14. My Angel; MariaCParziale- even in your absence, you continue to guide me. when mom upsets me or we're fighting i constantly hear you in my head, just like when we would have coffee. walking down the halls of Stockton or in the lots i can hear your laugh and see you dancing.
15. My CellPhone; AllyJ- My saftey blanket from boredum. My ability to contact the people i need to, and get bothered by work and life. My secret holder ;).
16. My Computer; Penny- My connection to life, the one that truely holds my secrets locked away in lost files. the one that let's my vent endlessly, long after i stop making sense with my typing.
17. My Customers- The ones that keep me employeed, and entertained on a daily basis. The ones that complian and btich, but still admit to love seeing me behind the counter. The ones that constant visit, and keep my night going, the ones that forcce me to smile because customer service is my job.
18. My Past- Ironically, my past has made me who i am today, lessons learned. i would never regret anything i have done, because at that time it was exactly what i wanted to do. my past has taught me what i need in life, and that i deserve the best.
19. Facebook- without it i'd probably be bored out of my mind 90% of my day. between stalking, catching up, and reminising, it helpsthe day go by a little faster.
20. My Bed; including my pillow & blanket- The holders of my dreams, and protectors of my nightmares. The place i feel safest, during my darkest hours.
21. My Books- The alternate worlds that let me escape my reality and live the fantasy life through other characters.
22. My Hardships- The days i didn't think i'd make it through alive, because they make all the good days that much better, and that much more appriciated.
23. Time- the time i get to spend with everyone and everything i am thankful for.
24. Finally, You- the one stalking me, and reading me pour my heart out. The one that makes my writing actually worth it.
<3.