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Most of my friends can't see me as romantic. Usually I can't either since I try to keep myself a bit more realistic so I don't get too many sad moments in my life like disappointment or deception. But aside from all the horror stories and fiction I read... I admit that I love the romantic parts. When I was seven I went to the beach with my family. It's the only REAL family moment I can truly remember. I make sure I have something to hold onto to keep me sane.
I've been letting myself slip into provocative thoughts. But then I realized, why be ashamed? If you find the ideas beautiful and they give you a kind feeling in your heart then why be embarrassed of them?
Another thing I know of is how when young you believe there is an answer for everything. I tend to expect others to have the answers, especially those who are older and wiser than I. But then one day I realized that that just wasn't so. People live in a mystery. Life, love, death, etc. they are all mysteries. The human body is a mystery. People seem to never realize that...scientists, doctors, explorers. I guess I'll never be like those people. For now, I just accept things for what they are and not what makes them. I used to look inside myself to find myself or find something. I used to fear I'd find nothing there. What if I had succumb to nothingness? After a panic attack I slowly stopped trying to find a solution to a problem or a cure for a problem. The problems would never have existed if I hadn't thought something was wrong in the first
place. You don't need an answer for everything for if you did, then there would be no more mystery. And well, as I see it, everything around us is a mystery... hence an answer might be the end of everything since the answer is solved.
Wow..thoughtful thinking from Ben.
I've been letting myself slip into provocative thoughts. But then I realized, why be ashamed? If you find the ideas beautiful and they give you a kind feeling in your heart then why be embarrassed of them?
Another thing I know of is how when young you believe there is an answer for everything. I tend to expect others to have the answers, especially those who are older and wiser than I. But then one day I realized that that just wasn't so. People live in a mystery. Life, love, death, etc. they are all mysteries. The human body is a mystery. People seem to never realize that...scientists, doctors, explorers. I guess I'll never be like those people. For now, I just accept things for what they are and not what makes them. I used to look inside myself to find myself or find something. I used to fear I'd find nothing there. What if I had succumb to nothingness? After a panic attack I slowly stopped trying to find a solution to a problem or a cure for a problem. The problems would never have existed if I hadn't thought something was wrong in the first
place. You don't need an answer for everything for if you did, then there would be no more mystery. And well, as I see it, everything around us is a mystery... hence an answer might be the end of everything since the answer is solved.
Wow..thoughtful thinking from Ben.