Why can't she just get out of my life..............
I'm so tired of this. You'd think by now i'd be able to even be close to Betsy without feeling anything. But all i can ever feel when i see her is anger. I'm not talking about a minor annoyance type anger, this is more of a beat the living shit out something type anger, even though thats not really my syle :). I'm just so mad at myself for letting her still affect me. I'm mad at myself because its not fair to Jacqui, she has been so wonderful to me about this whole thing, but i can't help but wonder how much of this she can take, i know i would have a hard time in her shoes.
I mean seriously, we were all at becca's birthday party last night, and after jacqui left, i couldn't even pretend to have a good time, because betsy was there. And i couldn't hang out with any of my friends, cuz she was always around them. i think thats what pissed me off the most, was i didn't feel like i could go hang out with my friends, cuz she would probably get mad and walk away, and then i would look like a jerk for "making the situation uncomfortable" i'm just tired of all this bullshit, and i can't wait to get back to college, and escape from all this.
Did i mention that jacqui is pretty much the best girlfriend ever?? she's been so good to me, helping me through this whole thing with betsy, she's just been there for me in every way possible. i can't imagine where i would be right now without her........
peace
I mean seriously, we were all at becca's birthday party last night, and after jacqui left, i couldn't even pretend to have a good time, because betsy was there. And i couldn't hang out with any of my friends, cuz she was always around them. i think thats what pissed me off the most, was i didn't feel like i could go hang out with my friends, cuz she would probably get mad and walk away, and then i would look like a jerk for "making the situation uncomfortable" i'm just tired of all this bullshit, and i can't wait to get back to college, and escape from all this.
Did i mention that jacqui is pretty much the best girlfriend ever?? she's been so good to me, helping me through this whole thing with betsy, she's just been there for me in every way possible. i can't imagine where i would be right now without her........
peace