whats up
yeah so im just sitting here babysitting... lol what a great job this is.. i sit on the computer while he plays with his friend... lol i love it, he gets out of school next friday which emnas next week is my last week to sleep in! but i seriously dont mind it at all.. im actually very excited to be makign all that money lol im saving my 1st to pay checks to buy a chihuahua.. idc what any1 says about it.. i want one so bad so im finally just gonna do it.. lind already said i could bring it to work everyday haha so im set with that.. and i know my mother wont make me get rid of it
Anyways on another note.. ive been kinda distant with all my friends lately and even my family.. i dont know why but i just have.. im doing the thing againw here i push them all away.. i hate when i do that but its like i just egt sooo mad that i snap at the 1st person to piss em off that day.. and the one person iw ant to be there.. isnt.. hes more concerned with getting drunk. but anyways i just need to fin soemthing that is going to givemy life meaning.. and i dont think its gonna happenw hile im iving here... i mean im moving in a year but i dont know if i can handle this shit till then!!
So this weekend idkw hats goin on friday but i really wanna go tot he hoedown.. ive never been to it so i wanna attempt to check that out, then saturday i gotta work then me and my lil cousin mariah are gonna get a hotel room and just go swimming and talk and stuff.. we miss each other liek crazy since ive moved abck.. and especially since this new job.. i see her at the most maybe once a month.. when i used to see her at the least 2 times a week. imiss that girl..
memorial weekend is comign up whichmeans its time for camping again, i am sooo not excited for this at all... i dont want to deal with the drama.. me and jessa rent even speaking bc i let my heart get inthe way of a family bond.. i admit it was stupid but i thought it was love.. so i know that weekend is gonna be hrrible.. im just gonna have to keep to myself and not talk to any1 cuz i know ill fuckign span if they say one word bout me and justin.. its done and over with guys soo get over it... ugh
what am i sitting here bitching about all this for tho.. atleast im alive andhealthy ya know.. some people take that forgranted alot.. just think guys.. u coulc go to work or school one day and just not come home.. trust me i learned that the heard way :(
Anyways on another note.. ive been kinda distant with all my friends lately and even my family.. i dont know why but i just have.. im doing the thing againw here i push them all away.. i hate when i do that but its like i just egt sooo mad that i snap at the 1st person to piss em off that day.. and the one person iw ant to be there.. isnt.. hes more concerned with getting drunk. but anyways i just need to fin soemthing that is going to givemy life meaning.. and i dont think its gonna happenw hile im iving here... i mean im moving in a year but i dont know if i can handle this shit till then!!
So this weekend idkw hats goin on friday but i really wanna go tot he hoedown.. ive never been to it so i wanna attempt to check that out, then saturday i gotta work then me and my lil cousin mariah are gonna get a hotel room and just go swimming and talk and stuff.. we miss each other liek crazy since ive moved abck.. and especially since this new job.. i see her at the most maybe once a month.. when i used to see her at the least 2 times a week. imiss that girl..
memorial weekend is comign up whichmeans its time for camping again, i am sooo not excited for this at all... i dont want to deal with the drama.. me and jessa rent even speaking bc i let my heart get inthe way of a family bond.. i admit it was stupid but i thought it was love.. so i know that weekend is gonna be hrrible.. im just gonna have to keep to myself and not talk to any1 cuz i know ill fuckign span if they say one word bout me and justin.. its done and over with guys soo get over it... ugh
what am i sitting here bitching about all this for tho.. atleast im alive andhealthy ya know.. some people take that forgranted alot.. just think guys.. u coulc go to work or school one day and just not come home.. trust me i learned that the heard way :(