he's just not that into me
Why yes, if you were wondering I am online on msn/facebook. Why? You ask? Well I'm pathetically waiting for a boy. A stupid silly perfect boy. An older silly boy, who is cryptic and older so i have no idea what he's thinking or how flirt with him. And i'm so terrified of looking immature. Ugh!!!
I'm so frustrated with men! and so angry at myself. I have wasted years and years on stupid men. I mean i have spent countless nights staying up late waiting for them, i have woken up early to drive them, gone out of my way to do something for them, or just run into them. I mean, I did it all, just to get noticed, just to be liked. And 9 times out of 10 it all ended up with me embarrassed and feeling foolish for lying to myself that they like me. And they agree we'll stay great friends. I wasted so much energy! I could have put that all towards school aqnd shit, but no, i wasted it all on men. pathetic evil men.
well now that that's been said, i'm still here waiting for him. hoping he'll come online tonight, but if not i'll be online tomorrow
i'm far to pathetic for my own good.
I read this book "he's just not that into you" and it changed my perspective. you know? i suggest everyone reads it.
it helps. it helped me see, that if he likes me he'll do something about it- guys are far braver than women and mostly go for what they want.
but then i convinced myself otherwise. there is the odd guy who is different, who is shy and waits for the girl to make the move.
and so i am blatantly obvious about my feelings, not that i could hide them, i wear my heart on my sleeve sadly.
and i hope that the guy will make a move, and every little thing he does i think means something.
his smile, the looks, his choice of words. i analyze it all, every bit hoping i can find something that will prove he loves me.
i don't even need to find anything. i just imagine, and hope and disillusion myself into believing i have a chance.
when of course i don't, i mean, really look at me, i'm surprised i've had any luck with guys at all.
i've prepared myself for a life of cats and tattoos and geckos.
i'll be the crazy woman down the street who hands out shitty candy at halloween and teaches the neighboorhood kids to swear lol.
I'm so frustrated with men! and so angry at myself. I have wasted years and years on stupid men. I mean i have spent countless nights staying up late waiting for them, i have woken up early to drive them, gone out of my way to do something for them, or just run into them. I mean, I did it all, just to get noticed, just to be liked. And 9 times out of 10 it all ended up with me embarrassed and feeling foolish for lying to myself that they like me. And they agree we'll stay great friends. I wasted so much energy! I could have put that all towards school aqnd shit, but no, i wasted it all on men. pathetic evil men.
well now that that's been said, i'm still here waiting for him. hoping he'll come online tonight, but if not i'll be online tomorrow
i'm far to pathetic for my own good.
I read this book "he's just not that into you" and it changed my perspective. you know? i suggest everyone reads it.
it helps. it helped me see, that if he likes me he'll do something about it- guys are far braver than women and mostly go for what they want.
but then i convinced myself otherwise. there is the odd guy who is different, who is shy and waits for the girl to make the move.
and so i am blatantly obvious about my feelings, not that i could hide them, i wear my heart on my sleeve sadly.
and i hope that the guy will make a move, and every little thing he does i think means something.
his smile, the looks, his choice of words. i analyze it all, every bit hoping i can find something that will prove he loves me.
i don't even need to find anything. i just imagine, and hope and disillusion myself into believing i have a chance.
when of course i don't, i mean, really look at me, i'm surprised i've had any luck with guys at all.
i've prepared myself for a life of cats and tattoos and geckos.
i'll be the crazy woman down the street who hands out shitty candy at halloween and teaches the neighboorhood kids to swear lol.