Fatdumbugly kthx
Ok that's it. I'm stupid. No no really. This isn't some attention gimmick, or some pity-party I'm throwing for myself. I really honestly think I'm dumb. Years of adapting to this system of education and I'm still like this. This isn't some down day, nor am I feeling particularly emotional this evening. I'm not feeling pathetic, weak, or sad. I'm dumb. I really honestly study, and I fail. I forsake play time to study, and yet, failure is still imminent. Ok. I'm not good-looking. At all. I don't care what anyone says because after I found out what YOU lied and played with about, I can't bring myself to believe anything else anymore. I can't stand it that I'm so shitty looking, honestly. I'm fat. Sometimes I feel as if I can't fit into my own skin and I just want to burst. I really want to know how skinny feels like. The only thing I'm ok with myself with is my character. I'm fine with that. Its just... umm.. everything else.