I will come out strong.... I hope
I have been listening to that song "Right Here Waiting" by Richard Mark a lot today. It kinda fits right now with how I feel, and I have actually started to listen to more songs like that recently. If anyone really knows me, they know that I really don't listen to a lot of love songs. Well, you know what things change, and I am changing as I type this right now. I am trying to change a side of me that I feel I shouldn't have. I will admit that I am a jealous person, and I can get jealous really easily when it comes to a certain someone. I need to change that about myself, not only for me but for the man I love as well. The fights are really not worth it. *I pull my knees up in front of me and hug them. I sit and think for a moment and then continue to write again.*
Adam - I'm sorry for getting into what was going on with you and AJ the other night. I should have just let the two of you fight and not stuck my nose into it. To be honest I was hoping that me and you would be friends; but I know that may never happen. You are a really great guy, and Brian is lucky to have a friend like you. I thank you for all that you have done for him because it has meant a lot to him.
I have started to realize something the past few weeks. My house is fuckin huge and lonely when it is just me here by myself. I know I have been living here for about a year now; but I am also use to living with friends or family. I mean I used to share a house with some of my friends, then with Nick, and now that I am alone I'm just starting to feel it even more so. I mean come on, who needs a two story, four bedroom house when it is just me, myself, and I. Yeah I know that two of the rooms are for either AJ or Brian if they ever want to stay over ... but the only one to use his so far has been Brian. *sighs* Maybe I should just sell it and get something smaller. I don't know .. it's just something to think about I guess.
If anyone has a suggestion feel free to call me or email me at AnotherCarterSis@aol.com
*I decide that I will just leave it at that and hits post. I let out another sigh and close my laptop. I get back into my bed and curl up in a little ball and hit play to start a movie.*
Adam - I'm sorry for getting into what was going on with you and AJ the other night. I should have just let the two of you fight and not stuck my nose into it. To be honest I was hoping that me and you would be friends; but I know that may never happen. You are a really great guy, and Brian is lucky to have a friend like you. I thank you for all that you have done for him because it has meant a lot to him.
I have started to realize something the past few weeks. My house is fuckin huge and lonely when it is just me here by myself. I know I have been living here for about a year now; but I am also use to living with friends or family. I mean I used to share a house with some of my friends, then with Nick, and now that I am alone I'm just starting to feel it even more so. I mean come on, who needs a two story, four bedroom house when it is just me, myself, and I. Yeah I know that two of the rooms are for either AJ or Brian if they ever want to stay over ... but the only one to use his so far has been Brian. *sighs* Maybe I should just sell it and get something smaller. I don't know .. it's just something to think about I guess.
If anyone has a suggestion feel free to call me or email me at AnotherCarterSis@aol.com
*I decide that I will just leave it at that and hits post. I let out another sigh and close my laptop. I get back into my bed and curl up in a little ball and hit play to start a movie.*