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[b_j_carter_]

So, I'm just sitting here, trying to get my thoughts together for an actual journal entry. I know what it is that I want to say, but every time I sit down to actually type it out, I kinda draw a blank. I guess, I have just had a lot on my mind lately. I mean with Brian being in the hospital.. when I first found out, oh boy did I freak. All I kept seeing in my mind was that part in the BSB video "Show Me The Meaning of Being Lonely", where Brian is taken out of the ambulance, and he is in that damn hospital room with the oxygen mask on him. Yeah, in the video he is fine, but in my mind it sure as hell wasn't showing that. I was seeing that he wasn't okay, and that just made it even worse. Thank God he is okay, and thank God for Adam. Adam even helped me out getting a pizza to Brian. Yeah, I know that eating a pizza might not have been the best thing for Brian to eat, but hell have y'all tasted that shit the hospital calls food? That isn't food, that is cardboard they try to pass off as food. At least Brian ate, cause he hadn't eatin since they brought him to his room. Lets see, I think one extra cheese pizza can make up for the food he didn't eat, am I right? Oh well Adam is right I guess, I don't think the doctors would be to happy if they found out about that. So last night I got him some crackers, and wheat thins like he wanted, but I just wish I could do more for him. The only time I do leave the hospital is to go take a shower, change cloths, and to eat. Adam is really great, he has been here the whole time for Bri, and it makes me feel good to know that he is here for him.

So on another note...
So far Krys, Amber, Aly, Miss. Jackson, Pierre, AJ, Nick, Lei, KD, Evan, Aaron, Leighann, Nikki (I think) are coming to the Halloween party I am having. Come on all you party people, what are ya waiting for. Huge costume paryt at my place this Thursday night. You can still come, all you have to do is leave me a comment, or call me at AnotherCarterSis.

I just wanna say I love ya to Nick, Aaron, Ang, Les, Brian, AJ, Howie, Kevin (I miss ya man), Lei, Krys, Kate(Where are ya girl?), KD, Amber, Aly, Evan, and yes even you Adam. If I missed anyone, I am sorry, I love ya too. Sometimes, it's just nice to hear that someone loves ya. *smiles*