STRESSSSSSSSS
i'm so stressed. i have no time for a life at all. i spend all my time owkring and when im not working im playing tennis and when im not playing tennis im trying to get ready for costa rica. seriously i have an english paper a history paper and a math projectt ALL DUE THE SAME WEEK! o yea and mr. mccarthy told me today that i had to re-write my whole essay cause it sucked. i suck at writing. its so annoying cause i can say things and they make perfect sense, well maybe not perfect but pretty close, and then when i try to write them down they suck. lisa and natalie peer-edited my essay today and basically said it sucked. which it did but i dont know im just a really bad writer and it makes me angry. i used to be a good writer too. like in 5/6 grade i owned on every essay. now i cant write them at all. things were so much easier then. i mean there were boys but they werent a major part of your life. friends didnt stop talking to you because of them. i miss my friends. yea i still have them but i never talk to them anymore. they think that the two worlds have to be seperate, boyfriend and regualr friedns but they dont. im friends with their boyfriends and we talk a lot. it wouldnt be hard to hang out with both of them together even if i wasnt with a guy. im fine with it so i dont see why they shouldnt be. i dont need a whole girls night out thing because i have a girls night out basically every night. i just want to talk to my friends again because i miss them. in 5/6 grade you hung out with them without the threat of boyfriends all the time. dont get me wrong i really like boys but i dont know when it happened that boyfriends replaced me. i know they try really hard to like plan all these special things but i dont want all these special things i just want them to hang out with me again. i bet i'd end up the same way though if i had a boyfriend so i cant really blame them but still i wish they'd remember what it feels like to be me. without a boyfriend but not like torn up about it. just wanting your friends back. i miss 5/6 grade.