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hi all.. It's been awhile since I've updated. Sorry, well not really cause I haven't had time. A lot has been going on lately.
I'm all done with theatre camp! Yay!! but at the same time... totally depressed, it's my last summer doing that, and it makes me sad cause I love my kids dearly and I shall miss T-bag and Stephen. I loved it. The play was fabulous! I was so very proud of my kids. I cried. It's just the best feeling... on show day that is... when it all comes down to that moment. All seven weeks of hard work, the kids perfoming amazingly.. having them come running around the corner and give you a HUGE hug.. the parents coming up to you and smiling and being like "my kid had so much fun this summer, plus they've gained so much self confidence" I'm not even exagerating. We (the camp leaders) were talking to the kids about camp and they were telling us how comfortable they felt just being themselves at camp... where they can just be them and not have to worry, it's like a little safe haven for them. I know I carried on about how crazy they were, but I miss them :( and I was so proud of them and love them dearly.
Now... I'm working at the Creative Kids camp... oh my gosh... I work 8 hours every day with 26 eight year olds... it's not that bad (most of the time) but, it's sorta overwhelming after having my camp. But it's and extra three weeks of work and I need the extra money.
I have been praying a lot lately about things that are downers in my life.. this sounds strange I know. But it's hard to grow in my faith when there are things or people in my life who are working against that and bringing me down. So I've been reevaluating a lot of my life, and it's scary! But growth is painful, it's not easy to grow and change, I have to remember this.
I just get so tired of my life sometimes... like I get tired of having drama, or having a lack of people to turn to with my drama (don't get me wrong, I have fabulous friends and all... just I dunno) I'm ready to be done with school, have a life and just live, not have all this other crap to worry about... it's killing me!!
I'm all done with theatre camp! Yay!! but at the same time... totally depressed, it's my last summer doing that, and it makes me sad cause I love my kids dearly and I shall miss T-bag and Stephen. I loved it. The play was fabulous! I was so very proud of my kids. I cried. It's just the best feeling... on show day that is... when it all comes down to that moment. All seven weeks of hard work, the kids perfoming amazingly.. having them come running around the corner and give you a HUGE hug.. the parents coming up to you and smiling and being like "my kid had so much fun this summer, plus they've gained so much self confidence" I'm not even exagerating. We (the camp leaders) were talking to the kids about camp and they were telling us how comfortable they felt just being themselves at camp... where they can just be them and not have to worry, it's like a little safe haven for them. I know I carried on about how crazy they were, but I miss them :( and I was so proud of them and love them dearly.
Now... I'm working at the Creative Kids camp... oh my gosh... I work 8 hours every day with 26 eight year olds... it's not that bad (most of the time) but, it's sorta overwhelming after having my camp. But it's and extra three weeks of work and I need the extra money.
I have been praying a lot lately about things that are downers in my life.. this sounds strange I know. But it's hard to grow in my faith when there are things or people in my life who are working against that and bringing me down. So I've been reevaluating a lot of my life, and it's scary! But growth is painful, it's not easy to grow and change, I have to remember this.
I just get so tired of my life sometimes... like I get tired of having drama, or having a lack of people to turn to with my drama (don't get me wrong, I have fabulous friends and all... just I dunno) I'm ready to be done with school, have a life and just live, not have all this other crap to worry about... it's killing me!!