pissed
Tonight i am pissed off, a little drunk and pissed off. i am in the dorms at NHTI hanging out with Josh, and I just founf out somthing that is kinda fucking insaine! theres this one girl on campus. she is just about everything i am looking for in a girl physicly. she is thing bruinette light freckles kinda short, in my eyes she might as well be aphrodite's. and i just found out she is with this dumb fuckin stoner looser, this kid isn't going to make gone god damn thing of himself, and he sure as hell dosn't have one intelligent thought running through his fucking head! he has absolutly no culture, and i doubt he know how to really treat a woman. so why is it that he gets to be with her, and i get to crash on this cold floor. i who am not unattractive. i have a great job, i am on the verge of making somthing of myself, i am a fairlt smart person, i at least make an effort to understand the world around me, i know how to build a house, fix a car, write programs on a comuter, cook knit, polay the guitar, interact in a social setting, and yet i sleep on the cold floor tonight alone. evern if i succeed in all my current goals i will be sleeping alone, just alot more sober in a larger lonelyer bed, will the cause ever justify the means?