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So ive kinda been talking to michelle again the last couple days, and im just REALLY drawn to her. And I don’t know why, I know I shouldn’t be. But now I realize its cause shes the only person that ended it with me that wasn’t mutual or wasn’t me just dumping them. Like shes the only girl that has dumped me that I didn’t want to end it with. But none the less shes someone who really gets me no matter what and were always there for each other and I wouldn’t change that.
Wow, so um, sometimes keita blows my mind. Like shes not usually a person you go to for advice. Like me and her usually just bitch to each other and then are like yea I just had to get it off my chest and then move on and not really talk about it… but tonight she actually gave me some input.
So this other girl- the main subject of mine and keitas tonight, well besides T. Keita said something that just kinda blew my mind open I over think things, and keita just made me stop and was like ok its as simple as this… “You care about each other” and I realize im trying so hard to figure out my feelings for her on a whole, and then when I get to the point where Im like yea I care about her, but its more then just an unconditional friend care, I like her” and them im like NO I cant like her I can care about her but nothing more. And then keita comes and gives me her simple view on life that is actually amazing at this point and makes me realize… just stop… you care about her, so care about her. And at this point you don’t need to worry about anything else. What happens happens if you choose to take that route that’s fine, and if it doesn’t work out well you have a new experience, if it does then you get even more from it so just let it happen what ever it may be.
And on that… I also realize I just need to put out there my thoughts no matter what. Even if its just once. Cause people know my feelings don’t change easily. Just like me telling keita that im always here for her, she already knew it cause im just that kind of person you don’t have to tell someone something for them to know, but I just feel so much better telling her even though one, she gives me shit for being mushy with her, and two I know that now she REALLY knows even though I know that she knew before but this just backs it up that you both are on the same level of understanding and then you don’t have to worry about regretting not saying something… Eh… im out for now I guess… peace-
OH YEA!! and who totally agrees with me that Keita should ask T to prom?!?! haha yea i know im right! were going up to see her this weekend i think so yea it should be tight. ill let yall know what goes down this weekend.
Wow, so um, sometimes keita blows my mind. Like shes not usually a person you go to for advice. Like me and her usually just bitch to each other and then are like yea I just had to get it off my chest and then move on and not really talk about it… but tonight she actually gave me some input.
So this other girl- the main subject of mine and keitas tonight, well besides T. Keita said something that just kinda blew my mind open I over think things, and keita just made me stop and was like ok its as simple as this… “You care about each other” and I realize im trying so hard to figure out my feelings for her on a whole, and then when I get to the point where Im like yea I care about her, but its more then just an unconditional friend care, I like her” and them im like NO I cant like her I can care about her but nothing more. And then keita comes and gives me her simple view on life that is actually amazing at this point and makes me realize… just stop… you care about her, so care about her. And at this point you don’t need to worry about anything else. What happens happens if you choose to take that route that’s fine, and if it doesn’t work out well you have a new experience, if it does then you get even more from it so just let it happen what ever it may be.
And on that… I also realize I just need to put out there my thoughts no matter what. Even if its just once. Cause people know my feelings don’t change easily. Just like me telling keita that im always here for her, she already knew it cause im just that kind of person you don’t have to tell someone something for them to know, but I just feel so much better telling her even though one, she gives me shit for being mushy with her, and two I know that now she REALLY knows even though I know that she knew before but this just backs it up that you both are on the same level of understanding and then you don’t have to worry about regretting not saying something… Eh… im out for now I guess… peace-
OH YEA!! and who totally agrees with me that Keita should ask T to prom?!?! haha yea i know im right! were going up to see her this weekend i think so yea it should be tight. ill let yall know what goes down this weekend.