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so everyone is pretty much writing about their summer. im not going to do that. cause my summer basically sucked. yea there were some good points but overall it sucked.
i spent this weekend alone for most of it, and the rest either working or shopping for a car. (if anyone knows someone selling an suv thing please call me). i tryed makeing plans with nicole but that fell through. tryed makeing plans with laura, that fell through too. so i really did nothing. which sucked. but this weekend basically summed up my summer. a whole lot of nothing. and no im really not depressed, im not upset. im just nothing. this summer isnt what i wanted it to be AT ALL.
so i worked today. last day of summer before my senior year and i worked. and not only did i work, but i had to do the dishes. which sadly, gave me time to think, while i was cleaning the grime off the quiznos shit. i really need someone to talk to. ive been talking to my manager Bill a lot, but i really just need a friend, not a manager.
ive spent a lot of time lately looking at old photographs. jsut reflecting on time thats gone by. when i talked to danielle the other day she made me feel a lot better, and i know i hate change, and i cant do anything about but i soooo desperately want things to be the way they used to. i want my frends to be there to slap me when im sad and depressed and by myself, i wana spend homecomming sitting next to john being stuid, and hofstra freezing my ass off with jess, i want my friend to be there when im a cluts and fall up the stairs, or set my croch on fire welding. but they arent, so ill just be alone setting my croch on fire.
so i got my lunch packed for tomorrow. i worked today and i made myself a sub at work for lunch tomorrow. i made a regular mesquite chicken, no veggies cept letice, bought an M+M cookie, and a bag of chips... $3.50 not bad.
so this was a totally and completly pointless entry. but i needed to vent a little. i just need someone to talk to thats all.
"Photograph" ~Nickelback
Look at this photograph
Everytime I do it makes me laugh
How did our eyes get so red
And what the hell is on Joey's head
And this is where I grew up
I think the prison outa fix it up
I never knew we'd ever went without
The second floor is hard for sneaking out
And this is where I went to school
Most of the time I had better things to do
Criminal records said I've broken in twice
I must have done it half a dozen times
I wonder if its too late
Should i go back and try to graduate
Last man and now that it was back then
If I was them I woulndnt let me in
Oh oh oh
Oh god I
Every memory of looking out the back door
I have the photo that was printed on my bedroom door
Its time to say, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
Its time to say, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
Goodbye
We used to listen to the radio
And sing along with every song we know
We said someday wed find out how if feels
To sing to more than just the steering wheel
Kim's the first girl I kissed
I was so nervous that I nearly missed
She's had a couple of kids since then
I haven't seen her since god knows when
Oh oh oh
Oh god I
Every memory of looking out the back door
I have the photo that was printed on my bedroom door
Its time to say, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
Its time to say, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
I miss that town
I can’t believe it
So hard to stay
So hard to leave it
If I could I relive those days
I know the one that would never change
Every memory of looking out the back door
I have the photo that was printed on my bedroom door
Its time to say, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
Its time to say, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
Look at this photograph
Everytime I do it makes me laugh
Everytime I do it makes me