Welcome to Sobriety
..And no, this isn't about me going to AA...
Hello all, I hope things have been going good in all of your lives recently. I have quite a bit going on that I haven't covered in a while. So, this is my chance to catch back up on things and also to hopefully get some feed-back on a situation. First, I have started taking an almost full load of school since this semester has started(9 hours). As most of you know I haven't done this in some time, so I'm having to stretch a little to keep up. Even with this I'm surprisingly having not a bad time with the class work. To tell the truth its refreshing. Though, within the last week I have been busting my arse to keep track of what I need to read, study, and also what projects to complete. ^_^; I am optimistic about it though, and I just continue to march right into it. Anyways, beside the school....I have recently acquired a chance of a lifetime. By this I mean a chance to go up to New York state to work for a camp, on a "beautiful" lake. The place is run by the YMCA, and its called Silver Bay(silverbay.org). I have a friend that has been working up there for the past 5 summers, and has become acquianted with the regulars up there. He was the one who is putting in a good word for me so that I have a good chance to make it. The idea of going up to this place is uber exciting, and I hope that I am accepted.
*sigh* Though all this excitement is going on I have been kinda run down lately. This is mostly due to some rather serious decision I have been faced with recently. The first of which is the choice of 'what school I am going to go to next.' I have been looking around at quite a few options(most of which mean me moving away). This uncertainty has me in a sort of scare. There are almost too many factors to consider..tuition, books, place to live, and of course the "all mighty," how am I to acquire the funds for such. Also, combined with this task is another situation that is of a different beast all-together. This dealing with my current relationship. The whole 'Sit-Rap' on such is that I dated her for about a month or so. Then she moved up to her aunts in Virginia till just recently, when she moved back. So technically we have been "dating" for 8 months now(6 & half of which were with her in Virginia). While she is gone, I contemplated breaking up with her. Now that she is back this feeling has grown into a full fledged monster. This is mainly attributed to a few things....1st-her attitude sucks(I'm not talkin about herself, but her whole life in general), 2nd-she has no drive to do things to get her out of the rut she is in, 3rd-she has all these little idioms that bug the living shit out of me(she jumps & hits at the littlest touch, also she is a horrible pack-rat), and finally-she has soooo much shit that she needs to sort out that she feels that I will help her with this. Now...as to how I went all this time without noticing this is beyond me. Mostly I think it is because of the fact that I have starving need for affection sometimes. *sigh* Its nice to rant sometimes, and trust me I needed to vent a few things off my chest. I'm not quite sure what to do in this situation, for she did have a sortof ragged past. So, I am left with the choice of being the nice-guy, or leaving her in the dust and moving on. I know that most of you don't like to get involved in such matters, but advice(especially from the females) is welcomed. Thank you for lending an ear.
Peace Out
Lance
Hello all, I hope things have been going good in all of your lives recently. I have quite a bit going on that I haven't covered in a while. So, this is my chance to catch back up on things and also to hopefully get some feed-back on a situation. First, I have started taking an almost full load of school since this semester has started(9 hours). As most of you know I haven't done this in some time, so I'm having to stretch a little to keep up. Even with this I'm surprisingly having not a bad time with the class work. To tell the truth its refreshing. Though, within the last week I have been busting my arse to keep track of what I need to read, study, and also what projects to complete. ^_^; I am optimistic about it though, and I just continue to march right into it. Anyways, beside the school....I have recently acquired a chance of a lifetime. By this I mean a chance to go up to New York state to work for a camp, on a "beautiful" lake. The place is run by the YMCA, and its called Silver Bay(silverbay.org). I have a friend that has been working up there for the past 5 summers, and has become acquianted with the regulars up there. He was the one who is putting in a good word for me so that I have a good chance to make it. The idea of going up to this place is uber exciting, and I hope that I am accepted.
*sigh* Though all this excitement is going on I have been kinda run down lately. This is mostly due to some rather serious decision I have been faced with recently. The first of which is the choice of 'what school I am going to go to next.' I have been looking around at quite a few options(most of which mean me moving away). This uncertainty has me in a sort of scare. There are almost too many factors to consider..tuition, books, place to live, and of course the "all mighty," how am I to acquire the funds for such. Also, combined with this task is another situation that is of a different beast all-together. This dealing with my current relationship. The whole 'Sit-Rap' on such is that I dated her for about a month or so. Then she moved up to her aunts in Virginia till just recently, when she moved back. So technically we have been "dating" for 8 months now(6 & half of which were with her in Virginia). While she is gone, I contemplated breaking up with her. Now that she is back this feeling has grown into a full fledged monster. This is mainly attributed to a few things....1st-her attitude sucks(I'm not talkin about herself, but her whole life in general), 2nd-she has no drive to do things to get her out of the rut she is in, 3rd-she has all these little idioms that bug the living shit out of me(she jumps & hits at the littlest touch, also she is a horrible pack-rat), and finally-she has soooo much shit that she needs to sort out that she feels that I will help her with this. Now...as to how I went all this time without noticing this is beyond me. Mostly I think it is because of the fact that I have starving need for affection sometimes. *sigh* Its nice to rant sometimes, and trust me I needed to vent a few things off my chest. I'm not quite sure what to do in this situation, for she did have a sortof ragged past. So, I am left with the choice of being the nice-guy, or leaving her in the dust and moving on. I know that most of you don't like to get involved in such matters, but advice(especially from the females) is welcomed. Thank you for lending an ear.
Peace Out
Lance