What Life Brings You (1/--)
TItle: What Life Brings You
Author: b2utynb2st
Pairings: JunKwang, Kikwang/OC... others? idk
Rating: PG-13 (for swearing)
Genre: Romance, Angst, more angst.
Summary:Junhyung is in love with Kikwang… But Kikwang decided to get married. Everything seemed to be so down for Junhyung these days, he couldn’t take it. He’s thought about suicide many times but has never actually done it… then a car crash happens...
A/N: So... this is my first time writing a fanfic... this crap would really appreciate some comments, critiques... etc. :DD well, here we go. idk what im writing... enjoy~
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'If life was a dream… Then I wish I could wake up from this nightmare sooner.'
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-Prologue-
“Are you okay? Why are you walking around in the rain with no shoes on? The roads here are really rough… See, your feet are already scratched…” He handed me an umbrella. “Where do you live? I could take you back home…” He gave me such a warm feeling. How can someone be so kind to a person he’s never met before?
He stuffed a wad of cash into my hands while we were in his car, it was so fancy in here, and I couldn’t help but feel embarrassed for dripping water on the expensive leather seats. “Why?” I asked, but he simply replied saying, “Because it’s worth it.” I gave him directions to the crappy old apartment that I lived at, and he drove me there. Then he smiled and asked, “Do you need a job? You can work as a housekeeper at my place.” I simply couldn’t refuse that offer; I was fired from my old job, and any other jobs that I tried doing. They wouldn’t keep me.
I nodded, and said, “Yes, thank you so much, I was just fired from my previous job.” He told me to pack my stuff, saying that his house was too far away from here for me to come over daily, so he had decided to let me stay at his place. I asked for his name, after I told him my own name and age. He smiled.
“I’m Kikwang, nice to meet you Hyung!”
That's where it all started.
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Chapter one: Reality Hurts
-Junhyung POV-
I was slowly shuffling along the road, the rough and pointy gravel making the heels of my feet bleed, leaving blood marks behind. The rain was pouring, as if someone had dumped buckets after buckets of water down on this desolate place. The footprints were washing away, along with my only reason to keep striving to live.
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The truth always hurts.
It was not the first time this had happened, the aimless wandering, and each slow and painful step. We can never be together, that's the truth, right? We were on whole different levels, as if he was the monarch, and I a lowly mercenary. It hurt. The pain was unbearable, but I couldn’t do anything about it. His smile always lit up the whole room, making all the beautiful young ladies fall heads over heels for him. That warm hand, those smiles… I’ll never be able see them again.
“We’re getting married!” I hated those words.
I hated seeing him smile so happily, so sincerely like that. Those smiles weren’t for me. Sometimes, I wished I could be a girl, all those worries would be gone; I wouldn’t be ostracized from the society. This world just isn’t fair.
“Yah Hyung! What are you doing out here in the rain… aish, it’s pouring out here, did you forget your umbrella? You know it’s the rain season right now…” Stop. Stop smiling at me like that. You’re breaking my clearly fractured heart even more. As if it’s hanging by one single string, the last piece threatening to fall any second.
“Hyung? Are you listening to me? Well, anyway, here’s an umbrella, get back safe all right? I have some things to take care of for the wedding, take a taxi and go home by yourself, okay?” I watched him get back into his Ferrari. Hyo Jung was also on the car. Hyo Jung… His wife. He waved to me with that smile again and then drove off, leaving me behind with an empty feeling in my chest.
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*Flashback
-Four days ago-
“Hyung! Come downstairs, quick!” I was cleaning the bathtub when I heard Kikwang call for me. I took off the rubber gloves and walked down, hanging on a fake smile after greeting his girlfriend. She really is beautiful, no way in hell can I compare.
“Hi Junhyung! Long time no see.” What pained me even more was the fact that she was my best friend in high school. Not many people even wanted to hang out with me… simply because my parents were from a drug selling society. I cut off my ties with them years ago, so why, why must everyone still hate me so much?
Her name was Hyo Jung; she was the only one that was there for me when my sister died. My sister, the only family I had left. So tell me, what should I do? What could I do when the two people that I cherish most in this whole world decide to date?
“Hyung, I have something to announce to you!” Kikwang smiled cheerfully and declared, “We’re getting married!” I froze. I knew that this was going to happen eventually, that it was just a matter of time before he announced the painful and unavoidable fact. I couldn’t smile, and I couldn’t lie. I was about to just stand there and let my tears fall. But I stiffened my resolve and stayed strong.
“Really! I feel happy for you!” I couldn’t look at them anymore. “Excuse me, I still have the bathtub to scrub, you two go ahead and plan your... w-wedding.” I stumbled on the last word and a fresh wave of pain washed through me. “I wish… you two happiness.” I ran upstairs, locked myself in the bathroom, and slammed my fist on the door, driving a splinter deep into the skin. I didn’t care how much my body screamed out in pain. It just didn’t matter anymore, because life didn’t matter anymore.
*End Of Flashback
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-Hyo Jung POV-
I saw Junhyung walking along the road, there was no one else around so he was easy to spot. It was pouring outside. He had hurt in his eyes, and that lifeless feeling plastered all over his face. It pained me so much to see him this way… Why is Kikwang so stupid? Couldn’t he see it too? It was all a charade, the dating, the wedding, everything.
Kikwang rushed outside right after he saw Junhyung, leaving the car idling in front of a red light. He handed him an umbrella and hurried back. “Why.” I stared at Kikwang coldly and demanded an answer. He avoided my gaze and said, “It’s for the sake of the family company.” I knew that he loved Junhyung so why did he keep on hurting both of them? The fact that he still couldn’t see that Junhyung loved him back just ticked me off.
“I can’t control my life. If my parents find out that I like a guy then the results will be devastating. I told you all this already.” Sometimes I just want to shout the truth to his face. But I cant. I made a promise to Junhyung that I wouldn’t tell… Not under any circumstance.
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-Junhyung POV-
I don't want to live anymore.
It’s one month after their wedding. Honestly, I just don't have the spirit to go to school anymore. I decided to walk to school today, giving them some more couple time together. I was wearing Kikwang’s scarf, and gloves that matched it. I was walking on the sidewalk, but I stopped.
I guess I just acted out of reflex, trying to escape my loneliness and pain. I darted to the middle of the road, clutching a picture of Kikwang and I, when we first met. We were playing at the amusement park.
There was a loud crashing sound and the acrid smell of smoke. I don't remember what happened after that… The last thing I saw before I blacked out was a door opening. Heh, this person must be rich… Driving a black Ferrari and all…
“JUNHYUNG!” The voice faded away slowly as darkness claimed my vision.
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Silence.
Something I’ve waited for… for a long time already.
~
Who are you? No, stop. Don’t go. Don't leave me behind in this empty room.
‘Then come with me.’
But I can’t reach you, you keep moving…
‘Goodbye’
…
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Was that a dream? Where am I now?
This place had a lot people, on the left was a cozy looking house with a fence around it. Hey, I remember where this is! Back where my sister, mom, dad and me lived together, so happily, as a family.
‘Hey Junhyung, whatcha spacing out for? Its your turn!’ It was my sister.
My turn to do what? There was a table, and a deck of cards placed on it.
‘How do we play?’ No sound came out of my mouth.
‘What are you trying to say Junhyung?’ I want to ask for the game rules.
‘Don't just stare at me like that… Say something!’
‘Where am I?’ I couldn’t hear my voice.
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-Kikwang POV-
For some weird reason, Junhyung left a note on the kitchen table saying, ‘I’m walking to school today… The breakfast is on the table, pancakes today:]’ I walked over to the kitchen table and ate alone, this normally doesn’t happen. Junhyung would usually smile at me each morning while preparing breakfast and ask me how my sleep was. We would joke around and talk a bit after finishing the food, and then we would go to school together in my black Ferrari.
The road’s slippery right now since it’s the winter season; it’s almost Junhyung’s birthday. Last year we didn’t celebrate because he didn’t tell me when his birthday was. Now that I know that it’s on December 19th, I got a birthday present ready for him.
Just as I was nearing the school, someone suddenly appeared in front of my car, which made me crash into him or her, making the person fly backwards and then land painfully on their back. I rushed out; the person was wearing a school uniform and had nicely permed hair. He was wearing my scarf.
“JUNHYUNG!”
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I rushed him to the hospital; I wanted to see how he was doing but the doctor kept me outside the treatment room. I was feeling so angry with myself. It was me who crashed into him… Hyo Jung came soon after I called her, right when she saw me; she grabbed me by the collar and screamed, “What the fuck did you do?” I just stood there, lifelessly staring back at her.
“Its all my fault.” I muttered and she set me down on the seat, and then calmly asked me what happened. After I explained, she sat down beside me and curled up in the fetal position. She started to silently sob into her arms, and I just sat there, still traumatized.
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“Doctor, is he okay? Please tell me…” The doctor shook his head and sadly stated, “I’m afraid he wouldn’t last any longer.” That's what ticked the last nerve in my brain.
“WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY THAT? HE HAS TO LIVE. Doctor, I’ll give you the fees, just please, please make him better…” I grabbed the doctor’s shoulders and started crying. Hyo Jung pulled me back and tried to calm me down, but no one could do that now. “We’re trying our best Mr. Lee… We really are.”
“He can’t die.” I looked at the picture that I found in Junhyung’s hands after the crash. My vision blurred and the tears came right back, every drop trickled onto Junhyung’s face, messing up the picture.
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and that concludes chapter oneee:D i still haven't figured out what to write next... and idk if i should continue :/
thanks for taking ur time to read this~
Chapter: (o2)
Author: b2utynb2st
Pairings: JunKwang, Kikwang/OC... others? idk
Rating: PG-13 (for swearing)
Genre: Romance, Angst, more angst.
Summary:Junhyung is in love with Kikwang… But Kikwang decided to get married. Everything seemed to be so down for Junhyung these days, he couldn’t take it. He’s thought about suicide many times but has never actually done it… then a car crash happens...
A/N: So... this is my first time writing a fanfic... this crap would really appreciate some comments, critiques... etc. :DD well, here we go. idk what im writing... enjoy~
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'If life was a dream… Then I wish I could wake up from this nightmare sooner.'
--------
-Prologue-
“Are you okay? Why are you walking around in the rain with no shoes on? The roads here are really rough… See, your feet are already scratched…” He handed me an umbrella. “Where do you live? I could take you back home…” He gave me such a warm feeling. How can someone be so kind to a person he’s never met before?
He stuffed a wad of cash into my hands while we were in his car, it was so fancy in here, and I couldn’t help but feel embarrassed for dripping water on the expensive leather seats. “Why?” I asked, but he simply replied saying, “Because it’s worth it.” I gave him directions to the crappy old apartment that I lived at, and he drove me there. Then he smiled and asked, “Do you need a job? You can work as a housekeeper at my place.” I simply couldn’t refuse that offer; I was fired from my old job, and any other jobs that I tried doing. They wouldn’t keep me.
I nodded, and said, “Yes, thank you so much, I was just fired from my previous job.” He told me to pack my stuff, saying that his house was too far away from here for me to come over daily, so he had decided to let me stay at his place. I asked for his name, after I told him my own name and age. He smiled.
“I’m Kikwang, nice to meet you Hyung!”
That's where it all started.
--------
Chapter one: Reality Hurts
-Junhyung POV-
I was slowly shuffling along the road, the rough and pointy gravel making the heels of my feet bleed, leaving blood marks behind. The rain was pouring, as if someone had dumped buckets after buckets of water down on this desolate place. The footprints were washing away, along with my only reason to keep striving to live.
--------
The truth always hurts.
It was not the first time this had happened, the aimless wandering, and each slow and painful step. We can never be together, that's the truth, right? We were on whole different levels, as if he was the monarch, and I a lowly mercenary. It hurt. The pain was unbearable, but I couldn’t do anything about it. His smile always lit up the whole room, making all the beautiful young ladies fall heads over heels for him. That warm hand, those smiles… I’ll never be able see them again.
“We’re getting married!” I hated those words.
I hated seeing him smile so happily, so sincerely like that. Those smiles weren’t for me. Sometimes, I wished I could be a girl, all those worries would be gone; I wouldn’t be ostracized from the society. This world just isn’t fair.
“Yah Hyung! What are you doing out here in the rain… aish, it’s pouring out here, did you forget your umbrella? You know it’s the rain season right now…” Stop. Stop smiling at me like that. You’re breaking my clearly fractured heart even more. As if it’s hanging by one single string, the last piece threatening to fall any second.
“Hyung? Are you listening to me? Well, anyway, here’s an umbrella, get back safe all right? I have some things to take care of for the wedding, take a taxi and go home by yourself, okay?” I watched him get back into his Ferrari. Hyo Jung was also on the car. Hyo Jung… His wife. He waved to me with that smile again and then drove off, leaving me behind with an empty feeling in my chest.
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*Flashback
-Four days ago-
“Hyung! Come downstairs, quick!” I was cleaning the bathtub when I heard Kikwang call for me. I took off the rubber gloves and walked down, hanging on a fake smile after greeting his girlfriend. She really is beautiful, no way in hell can I compare.
“Hi Junhyung! Long time no see.” What pained me even more was the fact that she was my best friend in high school. Not many people even wanted to hang out with me… simply because my parents were from a drug selling society. I cut off my ties with them years ago, so why, why must everyone still hate me so much?
Her name was Hyo Jung; she was the only one that was there for me when my sister died. My sister, the only family I had left. So tell me, what should I do? What could I do when the two people that I cherish most in this whole world decide to date?
“Hyung, I have something to announce to you!” Kikwang smiled cheerfully and declared, “We’re getting married!” I froze. I knew that this was going to happen eventually, that it was just a matter of time before he announced the painful and unavoidable fact. I couldn’t smile, and I couldn’t lie. I was about to just stand there and let my tears fall. But I stiffened my resolve and stayed strong.
“Really! I feel happy for you!” I couldn’t look at them anymore. “Excuse me, I still have the bathtub to scrub, you two go ahead and plan your... w-wedding.” I stumbled on the last word and a fresh wave of pain washed through me. “I wish… you two happiness.” I ran upstairs, locked myself in the bathroom, and slammed my fist on the door, driving a splinter deep into the skin. I didn’t care how much my body screamed out in pain. It just didn’t matter anymore, because life didn’t matter anymore.
*End Of Flashback
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-Hyo Jung POV-
I saw Junhyung walking along the road, there was no one else around so he was easy to spot. It was pouring outside. He had hurt in his eyes, and that lifeless feeling plastered all over his face. It pained me so much to see him this way… Why is Kikwang so stupid? Couldn’t he see it too? It was all a charade, the dating, the wedding, everything.
Kikwang rushed outside right after he saw Junhyung, leaving the car idling in front of a red light. He handed him an umbrella and hurried back. “Why.” I stared at Kikwang coldly and demanded an answer. He avoided my gaze and said, “It’s for the sake of the family company.” I knew that he loved Junhyung so why did he keep on hurting both of them? The fact that he still couldn’t see that Junhyung loved him back just ticked me off.
“I can’t control my life. If my parents find out that I like a guy then the results will be devastating. I told you all this already.” Sometimes I just want to shout the truth to his face. But I cant. I made a promise to Junhyung that I wouldn’t tell… Not under any circumstance.
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-Junhyung POV-
I don't want to live anymore.
It’s one month after their wedding. Honestly, I just don't have the spirit to go to school anymore. I decided to walk to school today, giving them some more couple time together. I was wearing Kikwang’s scarf, and gloves that matched it. I was walking on the sidewalk, but I stopped.
I guess I just acted out of reflex, trying to escape my loneliness and pain. I darted to the middle of the road, clutching a picture of Kikwang and I, when we first met. We were playing at the amusement park.
There was a loud crashing sound and the acrid smell of smoke. I don't remember what happened after that… The last thing I saw before I blacked out was a door opening. Heh, this person must be rich… Driving a black Ferrari and all…
“JUNHYUNG!” The voice faded away slowly as darkness claimed my vision.
~
Silence.
Something I’ve waited for… for a long time already.
~
Who are you? No, stop. Don’t go. Don't leave me behind in this empty room.
‘Then come with me.’
But I can’t reach you, you keep moving…
‘Goodbye’
…
~
Was that a dream? Where am I now?
This place had a lot people, on the left was a cozy looking house with a fence around it. Hey, I remember where this is! Back where my sister, mom, dad and me lived together, so happily, as a family.
‘Hey Junhyung, whatcha spacing out for? Its your turn!’ It was my sister.
My turn to do what? There was a table, and a deck of cards placed on it.
‘How do we play?’ No sound came out of my mouth.
‘What are you trying to say Junhyung?’ I want to ask for the game rules.
‘Don't just stare at me like that… Say something!’
‘Where am I?’ I couldn’t hear my voice.
~
-Kikwang POV-
For some weird reason, Junhyung left a note on the kitchen table saying, ‘I’m walking to school today… The breakfast is on the table, pancakes today:]’ I walked over to the kitchen table and ate alone, this normally doesn’t happen. Junhyung would usually smile at me each morning while preparing breakfast and ask me how my sleep was. We would joke around and talk a bit after finishing the food, and then we would go to school together in my black Ferrari.
The road’s slippery right now since it’s the winter season; it’s almost Junhyung’s birthday. Last year we didn’t celebrate because he didn’t tell me when his birthday was. Now that I know that it’s on December 19th, I got a birthday present ready for him.
Just as I was nearing the school, someone suddenly appeared in front of my car, which made me crash into him or her, making the person fly backwards and then land painfully on their back. I rushed out; the person was wearing a school uniform and had nicely permed hair. He was wearing my scarf.
“JUNHYUNG!”
~
I rushed him to the hospital; I wanted to see how he was doing but the doctor kept me outside the treatment room. I was feeling so angry with myself. It was me who crashed into him… Hyo Jung came soon after I called her, right when she saw me; she grabbed me by the collar and screamed, “What the fuck did you do?” I just stood there, lifelessly staring back at her.
“Its all my fault.” I muttered and she set me down on the seat, and then calmly asked me what happened. After I explained, she sat down beside me and curled up in the fetal position. She started to silently sob into her arms, and I just sat there, still traumatized.
~
“Doctor, is he okay? Please tell me…” The doctor shook his head and sadly stated, “I’m afraid he wouldn’t last any longer.” That's what ticked the last nerve in my brain.
“WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY THAT? HE HAS TO LIVE. Doctor, I’ll give you the fees, just please, please make him better…” I grabbed the doctor’s shoulders and started crying. Hyo Jung pulled me back and tried to calm me down, but no one could do that now. “We’re trying our best Mr. Lee… We really are.”
“He can’t die.” I looked at the picture that I found in Junhyung’s hands after the crash. My vision blurred and the tears came right back, every drop trickled onto Junhyung’s face, messing up the picture.
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and that concludes chapter oneee:D i still haven't figured out what to write next... and idk if i should continue :/
thanks for taking ur time to read this~
Chapter: (o2)