Everytime I say goodbye to you, it feels like it's for ever. You slip away a little more each time.
Hello world of LJ.
Today is a pensive day. It actually really wasn't that pensive till I stood out in the cold/warm fall air with Joel for an hour and listened to him declare it a pensive day. Must have been contagious.
We talked about leaving for college and I basically almost cried. It's so surreal that my life will change so drastically so soon. I know everyone goes through this but I was kind of upset about it today.
Why can't we get all the people together in the world that we really like and then just stay together? I guess that wouldn't work. Someone would leave. Someone always leaves. Then we would have to say goodbye. I hate goodbyes. I hate them.
Maybe I'm lucky. To have something that makes saying goodbye so hard.
Halloween was sort of random this year, no? I was kind of just like oh wow it's ...um, Halloween? What? I don't even know. My dogs are freaking out because the doorbell keeps ringing every five seconds.
I keep putting off my college essays. Someone slap me.
Saturday was basically the best day of my life. I love Mallory so much and Showstoppers was good. Congrats to everyone in that. My faves! Pumpkin cheesecake...mmm. Janie<3. Got my homecoming dress! Let the fasting commence. At least it's black. I need to find shoes. I love being a girl but basically hate it. But mostly love it.
Hmm. Nothing more to say except life is becoming meaningless. Not to say that I'm not happy or anything, I just don't feel alive. Blah. I blame school.
Happy halloween, chickadees. Keep warm and happy!
Today is a pensive day. It actually really wasn't that pensive till I stood out in the cold/warm fall air with Joel for an hour and listened to him declare it a pensive day. Must have been contagious.
We talked about leaving for college and I basically almost cried. It's so surreal that my life will change so drastically so soon. I know everyone goes through this but I was kind of upset about it today.
Why can't we get all the people together in the world that we really like and then just stay together? I guess that wouldn't work. Someone would leave. Someone always leaves. Then we would have to say goodbye. I hate goodbyes. I hate them.
Maybe I'm lucky. To have something that makes saying goodbye so hard.
Halloween was sort of random this year, no? I was kind of just like oh wow it's ...um, Halloween? What? I don't even know. My dogs are freaking out because the doorbell keeps ringing every five seconds.
I keep putting off my college essays. Someone slap me.
Saturday was basically the best day of my life. I love Mallory so much and Showstoppers was good. Congrats to everyone in that. My faves! Pumpkin cheesecake...mmm. Janie<3. Got my homecoming dress! Let the fasting commence. At least it's black. I need to find shoes. I love being a girl but basically hate it. But mostly love it.
Hmm. Nothing more to say except life is becoming meaningless. Not to say that I'm not happy or anything, I just don't feel alive. Blah. I blame school.
Happy halloween, chickadees. Keep warm and happy!