i think i need to start over...
It is the end of a year, and I need to start over with a new journal. This one has only been complaining and i don't like that. My life has changed so much this year it has been crazy. My new journal is left_to_w0nder . Please comment if you want to be added and actually read this sucker. I want to write about actual events in my life, not just about the bad stuff. I miss all of you like crazzzy, and hopefully we will still keep in touch and see each other? I don't know, things change and I hate it.
The people who mattered most to me at Nipmuc either A. blocked me from AIM B. havent talked to me in months or C. just i don't know, disappeared. I'm leaving all of that behind. I should have seen it coming but being the foolish idiot inside of me thought that being 1000 miles away wouldn't change anything, boy was i wrong. I'm not just blaming it all on any of you. I should have called some of you, or emailed or IMed or something but I've been scared too. Now its been so long since I've talked to you, I'm scared it won't be the same and it will be awkward. I don't know what to do. I just want to start over and stop dwelling on the past.