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ok so today.
i couldn't stop crying this morning. as soon as i had it under control my mom would say something like counselors are there all day today and it would start all over again. we had homeroom today for about 45 minutes so people could talk to people and stuff. 1st period i was a wreck. i couldn't control it. and it was with a bunch of 9th graders asking me what was wrong. then homeroom and i had to go find jessica. i just needed to be with someone. some random kid gave me a big hug. i got alot of hugs today. i just couldn't stop crying. chemistry they were all talking about it. some weirdos said the gf was probably giving him head when he ran out of the road. if i had heard that. i would have beat the shit out of them. then more classes.
then it was time for 4th. i couldn't walk into that classroom. i stayed outside the door for the longest time. Justin sat right behind me and i always looked forward to talking to him. we talked the entire class. so the entire class sat there and just cried for about 45 minutes. then we decided to do something. we gave money for flowers then we all wrote a little special note if we wanted to. it was going to be sent to his parents. i just wrote about how he was so nice to me and the memories i have of him.
i moved here from MA, and i just happened to sit in front of Justin. he befriended me, while i was in a room full of strangers. he always helped me and just had a calmness about him. he didn't talk much unless you knew him. we always talked. on friday he said to me "somethings gotta kill you" i dont think thats what he meant since we were talking about coffee. i really believe that things happen for a reason. he taught me alot, ever since i got here i became more humble and less concerned about my abercrombie jeans, i learned to value family. and i loved to tease him about hunting and dipping. i have no doubt that he is here with us now. his family said he was an angel, and i believe it.
as for the accident. he was with his gf who went to Bethel Christian Academy, she was a freshman. they don't know what happened. but it was completly engulfed in flames. the 1st rescue worker was pretty sure justin was dead so he went to help the girl. he cut the shoulder strap but couldnt get the lap belt and her legs were stuck. he couldnt get near her for the flames. he put them out once but they just blew up again. she was still alive, and literally burned to death. the rescue worker was helpless and all he could do was hear her pray.
they sent them away for an autopsy. to see if there was drugs or alcohal. justin was very against alcohal. and would never do drugs. but they had to identify them with their dental records.
god, they were 16 and 15. it scared me, it really did. life is very valuble.
http://www.citizen-times.com/cache/article/haywood_news/70833.shtml
i couldn't stop crying this morning. as soon as i had it under control my mom would say something like counselors are there all day today and it would start all over again. we had homeroom today for about 45 minutes so people could talk to people and stuff. 1st period i was a wreck. i couldn't control it. and it was with a bunch of 9th graders asking me what was wrong. then homeroom and i had to go find jessica. i just needed to be with someone. some random kid gave me a big hug. i got alot of hugs today. i just couldn't stop crying. chemistry they were all talking about it. some weirdos said the gf was probably giving him head when he ran out of the road. if i had heard that. i would have beat the shit out of them. then more classes.
then it was time for 4th. i couldn't walk into that classroom. i stayed outside the door for the longest time. Justin sat right behind me and i always looked forward to talking to him. we talked the entire class. so the entire class sat there and just cried for about 45 minutes. then we decided to do something. we gave money for flowers then we all wrote a little special note if we wanted to. it was going to be sent to his parents. i just wrote about how he was so nice to me and the memories i have of him.
i moved here from MA, and i just happened to sit in front of Justin. he befriended me, while i was in a room full of strangers. he always helped me and just had a calmness about him. he didn't talk much unless you knew him. we always talked. on friday he said to me "somethings gotta kill you" i dont think thats what he meant since we were talking about coffee. i really believe that things happen for a reason. he taught me alot, ever since i got here i became more humble and less concerned about my abercrombie jeans, i learned to value family. and i loved to tease him about hunting and dipping. i have no doubt that he is here with us now. his family said he was an angel, and i believe it.
as for the accident. he was with his gf who went to Bethel Christian Academy, she was a freshman. they don't know what happened. but it was completly engulfed in flames. the 1st rescue worker was pretty sure justin was dead so he went to help the girl. he cut the shoulder strap but couldnt get the lap belt and her legs were stuck. he couldnt get near her for the flames. he put them out once but they just blew up again. she was still alive, and literally burned to death. the rescue worker was helpless and all he could do was hear her pray.
they sent them away for an autopsy. to see if there was drugs or alcohal. justin was very against alcohal. and would never do drugs. but they had to identify them with their dental records.
god, they were 16 and 15. it scared me, it really did. life is very valuble.
http://www.citizen-times.com/cache/article/haywood_news/70833.shtml