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I'm having SUCH a horrible time. I just wanna kick someone's ass or something, I have so much anger I need to get out! I hate everyone right now!
My mom's being a fuckin bitch, she told me I need to lose weight again last night and has been saying little things off and on all week, I couldn't stop crying this morning and my skin is getting so gross again. I can't fucking stand myself. I hate being seen, I just wanna hide. I hate myself so much right now, I cut myself this morning and I couldn't stop crying, I'm just hurting so bad. Everything's wrong. I'm just so lonely and miserable and everyone's just horrible to me.
I'm just so mad at myself and for so many reasons. I hate that I'm so stupid and I can't remember anything. My memory has gotten so bad and it's really hurting my grades. I hate that my skin's so fucking disgusting. I hate that I have stretch marks all over and I have to hear about it all the time. I hate that I can't put my hair up because I have to cover up all of my insecurities. I fucking hate not being good at anything. And I hate having nobody to talk to. AND I FUCKING HATE THE WAY IM FEELING. I wish everyone would just drop fucking dead and quit making me feel so damn depressed. I wish there was something I could do to make this go away!
My mom's being a fuckin bitch, she told me I need to lose weight again last night and has been saying little things off and on all week, I couldn't stop crying this morning and my skin is getting so gross again. I can't fucking stand myself. I hate being seen, I just wanna hide. I hate myself so much right now, I cut myself this morning and I couldn't stop crying, I'm just hurting so bad. Everything's wrong. I'm just so lonely and miserable and everyone's just horrible to me.
I'm just so mad at myself and for so many reasons. I hate that I'm so stupid and I can't remember anything. My memory has gotten so bad and it's really hurting my grades. I hate that my skin's so fucking disgusting. I hate that I have stretch marks all over and I have to hear about it all the time. I hate that I can't put my hair up because I have to cover up all of my insecurities. I fucking hate not being good at anything. And I hate having nobody to talk to. AND I FUCKING HATE THE WAY IM FEELING. I wish everyone would just drop fucking dead and quit making me feel so damn depressed. I wish there was something I could do to make this go away!