Feb 11, 2004 22:28
Wow... Talk about a shitty day...
Am I really that bad of a person. My mom came right out and said she didnt like me anymore. All because of my report card and that i skipped 2 times. I want to tell her im sorry i could never be the son she wanted, and i want to say im sorry if I was the reason dad left. Im sorry i lie to you and im sorry ive stole from you. You are the only person that has been there for me through good times and bad, and what did i do, I threw it back into your face. I am sorry you dont like the person im turning into... I wish there was something i could do to change myself. but i dont think I can. I want to say that I love you, even if you dont love me any more. Im sorry for all the mean things ive ever said to you, and if i could take back everyfight and just tell you that you were right even if you werent i would. Im sorry for the person i have turned into.
So I guess im grounded "indefinitely"... I tried telling my mom that i only skip when im gounded and thats how i get into more trouble. she said she couldnt trust me anymore cuz i have lied to her so much in the past... I wish there was something i could do... i wont be able to go a long time without seeing my best friends. I rather die than be apart from them. I rather die then go thru the pain im going through right now......