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hung out with a lot of people latly escp. with lau, today i went to the hamptons with lau, i already started to go shopping which always makes me feel better, but it just seems like nothing is going the way it should.
and its all getting worse if anything, i havnt been able to sleep nd i just feel like bursting out in tears..
i mean when i hang out with my friends all i do is try nd have fun but having fun these days isnt as easy as it used to be, especailly when i thought things where getting better now that i look its doesnt seem to great.
i tryed to talk to my phycologist but i couldnt really talk, and even when someone asks me if im okay i say yeah im fine, but things are just building up im even trying to ignore my feelings but now i just feel like im guna explode.
i just want everything to end, i wana get away, runaway or do somthing.
theres supposavly lots of people that i can talk to, even bestfriends but it seems that noone really wants to listen to the way i feel or they dont care and some just seems like there guna juge the way i feel. so i dont even get whose there nemore.
it gets even harder when you realize the people who were closest to you are gone.
and its all getting worse if anything, i havnt been able to sleep nd i just feel like bursting out in tears..
i mean when i hang out with my friends all i do is try nd have fun but having fun these days isnt as easy as it used to be, especailly when i thought things where getting better now that i look its doesnt seem to great.
i tryed to talk to my phycologist but i couldnt really talk, and even when someone asks me if im okay i say yeah im fine, but things are just building up im even trying to ignore my feelings but now i just feel like im guna explode.
i just want everything to end, i wana get away, runaway or do somthing.
theres supposavly lots of people that i can talk to, even bestfriends but it seems that noone really wants to listen to the way i feel or they dont care and some just seems like there guna juge the way i feel. so i dont even get whose there nemore.
it gets even harder when you realize the people who were closest to you are gone.