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it amazes me how he came and left so quick
but thankfully, i knew better this time
i could see myself falling for him again...so i stopped cuz i knew better
i know him...he doesnt know how to not hurt me
so i didnt get attached, it hurt less when he went away this time
but i was right before...for me, its always been him
through everything....through *2* whole years of other boys & just life
...i had never truly gotten over him nd what couldve been
he was always there...in the back of my mind...nd i was just wishing the thought of him would go away
he's grown up alot, changed&matured...but at the same time hes exactly the same... in the ways tht shouldve changed with the rest
i dunno why...but there was always something about him that make me weak
i could be SO mad at him & somehow he could just fix it so easily, as if it were never really a problem
but hes gone now, probably with some other girl...nd its probably for the best
maybe he'll come back...for my sake, i really hope he doesnt though
but even if he does...the last time i saw him really opened my eyes to him
nd i think for the first time i actually saw what everyone else sees....
just him...no magic,no irresistable charisma, no hidden messages
yea he may be a smooth talker
but in the end he's just the same guy that caused my first heartbreak