ps for christian my only unlocked entry

[azzy_starr]

p.s. that entry is in no way an attempt to break this off with you.im not leaving you(in a relationship point of view)nor do i want to.i will continue to care for you as much as i ever have.but i know that between now and the next time we DO see each other,or even speak may be a very long time.im just saying that if you do meet someone,if you do decide im not the best for you,(which im not)then i will harbor no ill will towards you.i want the best for you,even if its not me.i will try my best though to speak to you and perhaps even see you.maybe at work if i can find out your schedule.that is if you even want me to come and see you.just keep posting things as they happen,and post where you may be and when.i can maybe get to you through sue ann if i can stay in touch with her.and definitely let sueann know if there is a change in status with the whole you/mom/me situation.like if she decides to change her mind!(fat chance).and let me know that youre staying safe.all that having been said, I LOVE YOU and as far as IM concerned you are now and will always be my girlfriend until you say different.i AM NOT BREAKING UP WITH YOU NOR DO I WANT TO!!!
not goodbye...just until..........

i love you soooo fucking much it hurts.........................................................
if you should die before me ask if you can bring a friend