Atlanta started raining on me....
And that is where I just returned from...that trip certainly was an enlightening experience. And the thing is, things were just starting to get better. We were starting to bond and talk and warm up and then everything just fell to pieces. Maybe we've built it back up even stronger than before, now...I don't know. I'm about sick of caring so much as to whether or not I am smiled at in the quad. I'm getting tired of having everyone's ideals and opinions pressed on me. I'm tired of girls and drama and shallow dreams and ambitions. Agh. And making allowances and excuses...and being random.
But for awhile, I was starting to think that maybe I could make something positive and pleasurable out of this...maybe it could be somewhat worth my while...and maybe it still will be....but again I am reminded that now I represent so much of what I disagree with...with a few meaningless letters...please don't sterotype me. And please don't let me be alone here...
When I was on Buccanettes I got so tired of being introduced as "Kim Shesabuccanette". But at least with Buccanettes you were able to maintain your individuality. People didn't know me as "just a buccanette" and people didn't always assume things about me because I was a buccanette. I like to think that all 16 or 14 or 12 or however many of us there was whatever year were a small enough group that people directly and indirectly associated with us could still get to know us and figure out what made us different. I hate it that I can be clumped together based off a name and a reputation...and there are so many people here...I don't want people to avoid me or to assume things about me...or to even really approach me because of three stupid letters....
But that's another ramble for another rainy day...
Because in actuality...
Today IS AN INCREDIBLE DAY!
Why? you may ask yourself.
Well, my friends, because today I got back my first college English paper and received a big fat A!!! Finally it would appear that hard work and sleepless nights are paying off...
Also, this week begins homecoming, which should be an entertaining experience, itself. I am pumped!
After this week, I am really thinking that things should be calming down for awhile...and maybe I will be able to catch up with my friends and family.
I love you all so much, and I miss the luxury of talking to you every day. I think about you all the time (you guys are totally screwing me up on these tests!!!) and I will be catching up with all of you very soon. BRI IN PARTICULAR! I feel like I have missed so much....
OH! And get this: my family (even my brother--the prodigal son!) goes over to my grandmother's house and eats dinner last night! I couldn't go because of a MEETING. And you know, that sort of dine over at the grandmother's house is normally reserved for holidays...THIS SORT OF THING DOESN'T HAPPEN ALL THE TIME!!!
When my mom told me I was crushed...I had wanted to come home anyway...and now my family was getting together and eating my grandmother's miraculous cooking without me...While I was in a meeting...*sigh*
I want to go home soon...
Sometimes I look around this campus and I realize how beautiful it is here. And sometimes I look around and I realize how lonely it is.
But today is a good day, despite the gloomy weather. And I love you.
But for awhile, I was starting to think that maybe I could make something positive and pleasurable out of this...maybe it could be somewhat worth my while...and maybe it still will be....but again I am reminded that now I represent so much of what I disagree with...with a few meaningless letters...please don't sterotype me. And please don't let me be alone here...
When I was on Buccanettes I got so tired of being introduced as "Kim Shesabuccanette". But at least with Buccanettes you were able to maintain your individuality. People didn't know me as "just a buccanette" and people didn't always assume things about me because I was a buccanette. I like to think that all 16 or 14 or 12 or however many of us there was whatever year were a small enough group that people directly and indirectly associated with us could still get to know us and figure out what made us different. I hate it that I can be clumped together based off a name and a reputation...and there are so many people here...I don't want people to avoid me or to assume things about me...or to even really approach me because of three stupid letters....
But that's another ramble for another rainy day...
Because in actuality...
Today IS AN INCREDIBLE DAY!
Why? you may ask yourself.
Well, my friends, because today I got back my first college English paper and received a big fat A!!! Finally it would appear that hard work and sleepless nights are paying off...
Also, this week begins homecoming, which should be an entertaining experience, itself. I am pumped!
After this week, I am really thinking that things should be calming down for awhile...and maybe I will be able to catch up with my friends and family.
I love you all so much, and I miss the luxury of talking to you every day. I think about you all the time (you guys are totally screwing me up on these tests!!!) and I will be catching up with all of you very soon. BRI IN PARTICULAR! I feel like I have missed so much....
OH! And get this: my family (even my brother--the prodigal son!) goes over to my grandmother's house and eats dinner last night! I couldn't go because of a MEETING. And you know, that sort of dine over at the grandmother's house is normally reserved for holidays...THIS SORT OF THING DOESN'T HAPPEN ALL THE TIME!!!
When my mom told me I was crushed...I had wanted to come home anyway...and now my family was getting together and eating my grandmother's miraculous cooking without me...While I was in a meeting...*sigh*
I want to go home soon...
Sometimes I look around this campus and I realize how beautiful it is here. And sometimes I look around and I realize how lonely it is.
But today is a good day, despite the gloomy weather. And I love you.