I choose to forget chap 1
A/N: Because I really hate to write stuff like "Minho P.O.V" and "Taemin P.O.V", so, before you read. please remember that the first P.O.V is Minho's, then Taemin's, then Minho's, then Taemin's...,'kay ? And remember to comment too. I love comments a lot. I swear to god I will reply <3
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You stood there, behind those curtains, eyes fixed to that huge crowd in front of all of us, smiling. I could see sparkles all over your body, not just your eyes, you were sparkling from head to toes, from your sweet full lips to your skinny hands. So bright. You’re just too bright. I took a deep breath, trying to look away from that heavenly form who was standing not so far from me, trying to hold in the desire of touching these hands, kissing these lips, ripping all these clothes to turn you bare and naked, even peeling off those skins of yours, those crystal-like skins that make you so mouth-watering, so desirable, and yet, so shinning. I was holding in, the desire of making you mine. The desire of eating you up alive.
You danced. No one can look away from you when you are dancing. Not even me. I took a peek once at a time, between heavy breaths. So beautiful. You were too beautiful.
You were sleeping, on my weak shoulder, softly snoring like a little kid, even mumbled something none of us could hear. I leaned down my head a little, carefully tried to listen.
“Minho…hyung…”
My heart stopped a beat when I heard that sweetest sound. Wasn’t that my name ?
“You’re…eating…my…cupcakes…”
I chuckled. What was I thinking ? You’re too young. You don’t know love. You don’t know lust. You don’t know the mixed feelings, which keep on stirring inside my heart every single day, like some kind of diseases…I’m getting weaker days by days. I can even imagine the day I pin you up on the wall, rape you like tomorrow the world will just simply crashes down and washes away all my sins.
Like hell I’m gonna let that happen.
You, my most precious thing in the world, I will not let anything harm you. Not even myself.
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You starred at me with that intense look of yours. My heart was pondering. I tried to focus my sight on that huge crowd in front of us all, but in the corner of my eyes, there was still you. I took a deep breath, tried to wash away all my thoughts of you, wash away all the imaginary touches, hugs, kisses.I revised the dance steps again and again in my head, but after all these things, the image of you was still there. I can’t even think clearly anymore. I can’t even breathe.
I laid my head on your shoulder, pretending to sleep, snoring and all. He~ I’m good at acting, ain’t I ? I felt you leaning your head closer. I can smell that sweet breath. And I can’t stop myself from calling your name.
“Minho…hyung…”
What am I doing ? You don’t know my feeling. You don’t know my love. What if you think wrongly about me ? What if you hate me ? What if you get scared of me ? What am I doing ?
“You’re…eating…my…cupcakes…”
I heard you chuckling. I can’t help myself from smiling.
You, my precious thing, I will not let anything interfere your life. Not even myself.
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_ Valentine Day _
My phone rang. It’s Soo Young noona who was calling.
- Hello ?
- Minho-goon. Noona is deadly bored. Are you free today ?
- Yes… ?
- Go on a date with me ! Today is Valentine day, and for god sake, I can’t stand the “love-is-in-the-air” feeling. It’s basically EVERYWHERE, AGHHHH…!!!!!!! I can’t stand it one bit ! Other girls are out on date ! Such traitors ! They were flirting with guys when I was innocently practicing ! Can you go out with me ? Can you ? Can you ? I know you’re a sweet and galant boy. You wouldn’t leave your poor noona alone on such day like Valentine day, right ?
Hmm, what should I do ? Oh, how I wish this is Taemin who’s speaking. But it’s Soo Young noona. Noona is good, she’s always been good with me since trainee days. Noona is sweet too. I guess she can be a nice substitute since going out with Taemin is something that will never happen. At least for today. And it’s Valentine day, right ? You shouldn’t be alone on Valentine day.
- Okay, I guess.
- YAYYYYYYYYYY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You’re the best Minho !!!!!!!!!
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_ Valentine Day _
- You should confess today. It’s Valentine. There’s no better occasions, I swear ! Last year I confessed to Onew hyung, and I got accepted right away. You should do the same.
- I…I don’t know…
- C’mon. I know that you’ve suffered for so long. Just give it a shot. Who knows ?
- Okay…But what should I do ?
- Come with me. Let’s do some shopping baby ~ We need chocolates ~
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- Wow !~ I never thought dating you could be so much fun !
- I didn’t think that dating you could be this fun, either. The movie was great, the game was awesome and all the people looking at us, I can tell, they were so jealous of us ! Of course, we are the hottest people in town !
- THE HOTTESTTTT !!!! WOOOH~~~
We stopped at the door lead to my dorm. Dating Soo-young was really good, she is funny and not fakely soft like other girls. Of course she can’t beat Taemin in my heart, but noona is great. She turned around and looked deeply into my eyes:
- Do you know what would be the best ending for a great date ?
- Eerrm…No…
- A KISS !
Then she pulled me down and kissed me.
- NOONA !
- Oh, it’s just a kiss. No big deal. Now I can tell the girls that I kissed Minho, the flaming charisma, not some bad-looking dumb ass like they did, hehe~
- But…
- Don’t you want to tell other guys that you kissed Choi Soo Young, the long-legged hottie, Choi Minho ?
Oh no. Of course I don’t want to. Definitely.
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Okay~
Today I decided to confess, after a whole lot of encouragement from Key. Minho hyung was out, which is a good thing since I will have time to prepare myself, and, he~ suprise him~
6pm. He should go home by now. My heart was shaking. My body whole was shaking. I tried my best to avoid any bad thought came across my head, like "what if he don't like me" or "what if he is too terified he will throw me outta the window ?". I shook my head, convinced myself that thing like that would never happen. But I came downstair to wait for him at the building door, just in case, since there is no windows there (Taemin ah, you're just too cute). As I was racing down those steps, my heart was racing too. Minho hyung ah~ I'm coming ~~~
OOOPPPSSS !!!!!
Minho was kissing someone. Somegirl. Okay..not somegirl. I realized that was Soo Young noona.
There is no place in his world for you, minnie ah~ there is no place. No place. Just a single no.
I threw the heart-shaped box to the rubbish can, wishpered: "Noona, you're so pretty, all the boys keep staring at you....."
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- Hey !
- Hi Key.
- Have you seen Taemin ?
- No, why ?
I could easily see Key was mumbling some stuff like "Aish, what the hell is that idiot thinking ?" and then, he turned around, looked straight to my eyes and commanded:
- You. Go find him. Quick !
My mind tried to stop myself to obey Key. Hell, who does he think he is anyway ? Big mama ? He is not that much older than me anyway. Just three months. Three months ! But my body didn't have the same idea, as it was turning around and walked straight to the door. This is one of many power of the almighty Key anyway.
But where can i find Taemin ? The Taemin i know has many weird habits. He hated bugs, so much that he's even terrified of the fake bugs on our costumes. He was always the last one to put on the costume, even though his costume has the least bug. But, it's weird that he really like things like parks and lakes and forests, where there are hundred kinds of bugs. He also like high places, like roof and stuffs. Ah ! Bingo ! The roof !
I hurriedly run up the staircase, only to find a small figue looking at the amazing lights of the building surrounding us like a starry sky that made by twinkle pieces of crystal. You held your head down, buried your nose inside your knees, only your eyes were staring straight. I was next to you, but you didn't pay attention. You were up in your own university once again.
And then, I realized. There was slightlest tear running down from your beautiful eyes. I could even hear soft sniff. My mind was set on a craze. What happened ? Who in this shitty little world could hurt someone so innocent, so cute, so precious like you ? Or what ? What could possibly harm you ?
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- Minnie, what's wrong ? Why are you crying ?
I heard that low soft voice. It's you. He~ After hurting me so bad, how can you still find me ? Is it sweet for you to find me hurt ? Is it wonderful for you to find me down and depressed ? You stomped on my heart like it’s nothing but dust.
Or may be, for you it’s nothing but dust.
Maybe, it’s only me who has been in love with you all the time. You’ve never fell for me. I was only dreaming, wasn’t I ?
It’s not maybe anymore. It’s true. I’m sure. You like Soo Young noona. That’s why you kissed her. Isn’t that obvious enough ? You don’t like me. You don’t like guy. You are not gay. You’re interested in girls, girls like Soo Young noona.
I was only dreaming.
- Minnie. Minnie. What’s the hell is going on with you ?
I looked at your beautiful black eyes. I couldn’t see a thing. Why can’t you see me, why can’t you see my love even though you’re right next to me ? Why can’t you understand at least a bit of my heart ?
I felt like my heart was ripped into million pieces, again and again, as I looked at you. I didn’t know that it is painful to be in love.
I stood up and ran. I felt your strong hands pull me back but I shoved you away.
No. I can’t face you now. I can’t endure this pain. It’s hard, really hard.
I stopped at the staircase. And then throw myself down.
God. Please let me forget about him.
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You stood there, behind those curtains, eyes fixed to that huge crowd in front of all of us, smiling. I could see sparkles all over your body, not just your eyes, you were sparkling from head to toes, from your sweet full lips to your skinny hands. So bright. You’re just too bright. I took a deep breath, trying to look away from that heavenly form who was standing not so far from me, trying to hold in the desire of touching these hands, kissing these lips, ripping all these clothes to turn you bare and naked, even peeling off those skins of yours, those crystal-like skins that make you so mouth-watering, so desirable, and yet, so shinning. I was holding in, the desire of making you mine. The desire of eating you up alive.
You danced. No one can look away from you when you are dancing. Not even me. I took a peek once at a time, between heavy breaths. So beautiful. You were too beautiful.
You were sleeping, on my weak shoulder, softly snoring like a little kid, even mumbled something none of us could hear. I leaned down my head a little, carefully tried to listen.
“Minho…hyung…”
My heart stopped a beat when I heard that sweetest sound. Wasn’t that my name ?
“You’re…eating…my…cupcakes…”
I chuckled. What was I thinking ? You’re too young. You don’t know love. You don’t know lust. You don’t know the mixed feelings, which keep on stirring inside my heart every single day, like some kind of diseases…I’m getting weaker days by days. I can even imagine the day I pin you up on the wall, rape you like tomorrow the world will just simply crashes down and washes away all my sins.
Like hell I’m gonna let that happen.
You, my most precious thing in the world, I will not let anything harm you. Not even myself.
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You starred at me with that intense look of yours. My heart was pondering. I tried to focus my sight on that huge crowd in front of us all, but in the corner of my eyes, there was still you. I took a deep breath, tried to wash away all my thoughts of you, wash away all the imaginary touches, hugs, kisses.I revised the dance steps again and again in my head, but after all these things, the image of you was still there. I can’t even think clearly anymore. I can’t even breathe.
I laid my head on your shoulder, pretending to sleep, snoring and all. He~ I’m good at acting, ain’t I ? I felt you leaning your head closer. I can smell that sweet breath. And I can’t stop myself from calling your name.
“Minho…hyung…”
What am I doing ? You don’t know my feeling. You don’t know my love. What if you think wrongly about me ? What if you hate me ? What if you get scared of me ? What am I doing ?
“You’re…eating…my…cupcakes…”
I heard you chuckling. I can’t help myself from smiling.
You, my precious thing, I will not let anything interfere your life. Not even myself.
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_ Valentine Day _
My phone rang. It’s Soo Young noona who was calling.
- Hello ?
- Minho-goon. Noona is deadly bored. Are you free today ?
- Yes… ?
- Go on a date with me ! Today is Valentine day, and for god sake, I can’t stand the “love-is-in-the-air” feeling. It’s basically EVERYWHERE, AGHHHH…!!!!!!! I can’t stand it one bit ! Other girls are out on date ! Such traitors ! They were flirting with guys when I was innocently practicing ! Can you go out with me ? Can you ? Can you ? I know you’re a sweet and galant boy. You wouldn’t leave your poor noona alone on such day like Valentine day, right ?
Hmm, what should I do ? Oh, how I wish this is Taemin who’s speaking. But it’s Soo Young noona. Noona is good, she’s always been good with me since trainee days. Noona is sweet too. I guess she can be a nice substitute since going out with Taemin is something that will never happen. At least for today. And it’s Valentine day, right ? You shouldn’t be alone on Valentine day.
- Okay, I guess.
- YAYYYYYYYYYY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You’re the best Minho !!!!!!!!!
***********************************
_ Valentine Day _
- You should confess today. It’s Valentine. There’s no better occasions, I swear ! Last year I confessed to Onew hyung, and I got accepted right away. You should do the same.
- I…I don’t know…
- C’mon. I know that you’ve suffered for so long. Just give it a shot. Who knows ?
- Okay…But what should I do ?
- Come with me. Let’s do some shopping baby ~ We need chocolates ~
***********************************
- Wow !~ I never thought dating you could be so much fun !
- I didn’t think that dating you could be this fun, either. The movie was great, the game was awesome and all the people looking at us, I can tell, they were so jealous of us ! Of course, we are the hottest people in town !
- THE HOTTESTTTT !!!! WOOOH~~~
We stopped at the door lead to my dorm. Dating Soo-young was really good, she is funny and not fakely soft like other girls. Of course she can’t beat Taemin in my heart, but noona is great. She turned around and looked deeply into my eyes:
- Do you know what would be the best ending for a great date ?
- Eerrm…No…
- A KISS !
Then she pulled me down and kissed me.
- NOONA !
- Oh, it’s just a kiss. No big deal. Now I can tell the girls that I kissed Minho, the flaming charisma, not some bad-looking dumb ass like they did, hehe~
- But…
- Don’t you want to tell other guys that you kissed Choi Soo Young, the long-legged hottie, Choi Minho ?
Oh no. Of course I don’t want to. Definitely.
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Okay~
Today I decided to confess, after a whole lot of encouragement from Key. Minho hyung was out, which is a good thing since I will have time to prepare myself, and, he~ suprise him~
6pm. He should go home by now. My heart was shaking. My body whole was shaking. I tried my best to avoid any bad thought came across my head, like "what if he don't like me" or "what if he is too terified he will throw me outta the window ?". I shook my head, convinced myself that thing like that would never happen. But I came downstair to wait for him at the building door, just in case, since there is no windows there (Taemin ah, you're just too cute). As I was racing down those steps, my heart was racing too. Minho hyung ah~ I'm coming ~~~
OOOPPPSSS !!!!!
Minho was kissing someone. Somegirl. Okay..not somegirl. I realized that was Soo Young noona.
There is no place in his world for you, minnie ah~ there is no place. No place. Just a single no.
I threw the heart-shaped box to the rubbish can, wishpered: "Noona, you're so pretty, all the boys keep staring at you....."
***************************************
- Hey !
- Hi Key.
- Have you seen Taemin ?
- No, why ?
I could easily see Key was mumbling some stuff like "Aish, what the hell is that idiot thinking ?" and then, he turned around, looked straight to my eyes and commanded:
- You. Go find him. Quick !
My mind tried to stop myself to obey Key. Hell, who does he think he is anyway ? Big mama ? He is not that much older than me anyway. Just three months. Three months ! But my body didn't have the same idea, as it was turning around and walked straight to the door. This is one of many power of the almighty Key anyway.
But where can i find Taemin ? The Taemin i know has many weird habits. He hated bugs, so much that he's even terrified of the fake bugs on our costumes. He was always the last one to put on the costume, even though his costume has the least bug. But, it's weird that he really like things like parks and lakes and forests, where there are hundred kinds of bugs. He also like high places, like roof and stuffs. Ah ! Bingo ! The roof !
I hurriedly run up the staircase, only to find a small figue looking at the amazing lights of the building surrounding us like a starry sky that made by twinkle pieces of crystal. You held your head down, buried your nose inside your knees, only your eyes were staring straight. I was next to you, but you didn't pay attention. You were up in your own university once again.
And then, I realized. There was slightlest tear running down from your beautiful eyes. I could even hear soft sniff. My mind was set on a craze. What happened ? Who in this shitty little world could hurt someone so innocent, so cute, so precious like you ? Or what ? What could possibly harm you ?
*********************************
- Minnie, what's wrong ? Why are you crying ?
I heard that low soft voice. It's you. He~ After hurting me so bad, how can you still find me ? Is it sweet for you to find me hurt ? Is it wonderful for you to find me down and depressed ? You stomped on my heart like it’s nothing but dust.
Or may be, for you it’s nothing but dust.
Maybe, it’s only me who has been in love with you all the time. You’ve never fell for me. I was only dreaming, wasn’t I ?
It’s not maybe anymore. It’s true. I’m sure. You like Soo Young noona. That’s why you kissed her. Isn’t that obvious enough ? You don’t like me. You don’t like guy. You are not gay. You’re interested in girls, girls like Soo Young noona.
I was only dreaming.
- Minnie. Minnie. What’s the hell is going on with you ?
I looked at your beautiful black eyes. I couldn’t see a thing. Why can’t you see me, why can’t you see my love even though you’re right next to me ? Why can’t you understand at least a bit of my heart ?
I felt like my heart was ripped into million pieces, again and again, as I looked at you. I didn’t know that it is painful to be in love.
I stood up and ran. I felt your strong hands pull me back but I shoved you away.
No. I can’t face you now. I can’t endure this pain. It’s hard, really hard.
I stopped at the staircase. And then throw myself down.
God. Please let me forget about him.