That which should not have been done.
Well, well, well. Look who we have here. Me. After i said i was never posting again.
Fuck.
The need to blog has overwhelmed me. I guess i just fail that hard at life. ;P
may as well get to the point! Let's start from least important and work our way up.
I'm thinking i'm going to get to writing soon. something i know well, medival-fantasy. I have the outline of the story and it's structure in my head, just gotta go through the hard part of putting it all down. Those interested, I can definately keep you in the loop and send you things as i complete them if you like. I'll go ahead and say here that the main character will be named Kineas, and he is an architect. :3
I am a giant nerd and i still play final fantasy XI. the beta for FFXIV is open for applicants, which obviously i applied for, and i'm still waiting on a response from SE. Here's hoping that 1) i get in and that 2) it doesn't completely suck. I have high hopes, so more than likely i'll manage to be disappointed by -something- ;3 I'll maybe do a more detailed gamer post later but for now this will do.
I have managed to find myself single again. ~.~ i'm really beginning to think i just have no ability to pick out girls that are good for me. When i broke up with shannon (reasoning: I knew i was making her miserable ) she immediately perked up and became an interesting person again. not good for my self esteem, i don't mind letting you know. On the flip side of the relationship coin, Amber, a girl i work with, seems receptive to the idea of us hanging out and getting drunk sometime, so who knows? she's cute and hella fun, there may be potential there.
School is gonna be the next big deal, it's like the rollercoaster of death. Can't get private loans anymore, took half a quarter to figure that all out and so i was failing my classes too. figured out i can take two classes a quarter off of my grants and federal loans and still get a bit of money back, so i dropped my classes and decided to just buckle down next quarter. found out that sent my financial aid for this quarter BACK so now i have a 2k credit i owe to the school, but don't worry they'll just take that money i was counting on for the next four or five quarters to pay it off over time. FUCK. I've been working my ass off, taking all the hours i can. I was offered a paid internship with a web design company, and if that pays well enough, who knows? i may yet be saved. until then i'm managing to scrape by.
Now, philosophy! This may seem strange to whomever decides to read my wall of text, but i've only recently been figuring out that it's okay to want things. or to regret things. I feel like a part of me is only just now waking up after a long and turbulent sleep. There are some more details that belong here but i don't think i'm posting them without some kind of friend-restriction in place.
Bam. Done. Wall of text for everyone. Read it all, it's good for digestion!
tl;dr - Life is shitty in every way on every level, but at least i'm not totally screwed.
Edit: Last updated 103 weeks ago. Daymn. I sent out a few comments to people I'd particularly hope to come around again (specifically the sort i can't really contact other ways very easily) so here's hoping!
Edit2: So apperantly I only get to view friend's posts that are at most as old as a week ago. Fail.
Fuck.
The need to blog has overwhelmed me. I guess i just fail that hard at life. ;P
may as well get to the point! Let's start from least important and work our way up.
I'm thinking i'm going to get to writing soon. something i know well, medival-fantasy. I have the outline of the story and it's structure in my head, just gotta go through the hard part of putting it all down. Those interested, I can definately keep you in the loop and send you things as i complete them if you like. I'll go ahead and say here that the main character will be named Kineas, and he is an architect. :3
I am a giant nerd and i still play final fantasy XI. the beta for FFXIV is open for applicants, which obviously i applied for, and i'm still waiting on a response from SE. Here's hoping that 1) i get in and that 2) it doesn't completely suck. I have high hopes, so more than likely i'll manage to be disappointed by -something- ;3 I'll maybe do a more detailed gamer post later but for now this will do.
I have managed to find myself single again. ~.~ i'm really beginning to think i just have no ability to pick out girls that are good for me. When i broke up with shannon (reasoning: I knew i was making her miserable ) she immediately perked up and became an interesting person again. not good for my self esteem, i don't mind letting you know. On the flip side of the relationship coin, Amber, a girl i work with, seems receptive to the idea of us hanging out and getting drunk sometime, so who knows? she's cute and hella fun, there may be potential there.
School is gonna be the next big deal, it's like the rollercoaster of death. Can't get private loans anymore, took half a quarter to figure that all out and so i was failing my classes too. figured out i can take two classes a quarter off of my grants and federal loans and still get a bit of money back, so i dropped my classes and decided to just buckle down next quarter. found out that sent my financial aid for this quarter BACK so now i have a 2k credit i owe to the school, but don't worry they'll just take that money i was counting on for the next four or five quarters to pay it off over time. FUCK. I've been working my ass off, taking all the hours i can. I was offered a paid internship with a web design company, and if that pays well enough, who knows? i may yet be saved. until then i'm managing to scrape by.
Now, philosophy! This may seem strange to whomever decides to read my wall of text, but i've only recently been figuring out that it's okay to want things. or to regret things. I feel like a part of me is only just now waking up after a long and turbulent sleep. There are some more details that belong here but i don't think i'm posting them without some kind of friend-restriction in place.
Bam. Done. Wall of text for everyone. Read it all, it's good for digestion!
tl;dr - Life is shitty in every way on every level, but at least i'm not totally screwed.
Edit: Last updated 103 weeks ago. Daymn. I sent out a few comments to people I'd particularly hope to come around again (specifically the sort i can't really contact other ways very easily) so here's hoping!
Edit2: So apperantly I only get to view friend's posts that are at most as old as a week ago. Fail.