First day of no meds
So... no Xanax last night or today. Just a sleeping pill last night.
Today, I was unmedicated.
I was telling someone earlier today how two things really bother me, two things that cause the most anxiety: work and relationships.
So, of course, today, I had problems with BOTH of them.
A nice test for me.
Well, f--- you anxiety, F YOU!
I'm sick of you.
I'm fighting this one out. Going to the Psych on the 8th to see what they say I should do, but I'm going to push for no meds, or at the very least, no more SSRIs. I gotta find something to make me sleep correctly tho... I sleep freakin' weird.
So, it was pretty bad for a while today, but I feel different. I feel like I can take it this time. Maybe I just haven't been battered into submission enough, which is what happened before. But I want to know... who is Steve when he's not on meds. I'd say a few more days to adjust or maybe even a whole month really I've been on the old ones so long. I hope to fight it out, I accept the consequences. If all I can manage to do is work, eat and sleep, that's enough for now. So pray for me if you can. Its not a short road, this one.
Today, I was unmedicated.
I was telling someone earlier today how two things really bother me, two things that cause the most anxiety: work and relationships.
So, of course, today, I had problems with BOTH of them.
A nice test for me.
Well, f--- you anxiety, F YOU!
I'm sick of you.
I'm fighting this one out. Going to the Psych on the 8th to see what they say I should do, but I'm going to push for no meds, or at the very least, no more SSRIs. I gotta find something to make me sleep correctly tho... I sleep freakin' weird.
So, it was pretty bad for a while today, but I feel different. I feel like I can take it this time. Maybe I just haven't been battered into submission enough, which is what happened before. But I want to know... who is Steve when he's not on meds. I'd say a few more days to adjust or maybe even a whole month really I've been on the old ones so long. I hope to fight it out, I accept the consequences. If all I can manage to do is work, eat and sleep, that's enough for now. So pray for me if you can. Its not a short road, this one.