Life is hell

[azure_sky]

Well, I'm about to break. My life has gone to hell in a matter of seconds. My dad and stepmom got arrested for shit that isn't even true they took my little brother. Brandon can't stand me right now if I wasn't trying to get my little brother right now I think i would have commited suicide by now. He's the only thing keeping me holding on. I don't know what to do with myself right now. I just want to flip the fuck out. But he needs me more now then any other time. I made a promise to him and I'm going to do my damndest to do whatever I can for the boy. I would do that for any of my brothers. I just want to scream and cut myself. But I know that it would just screw me over in the end.I won't do it because he needs me. I need Brandon right now and I just wish that he could see that. But I don't think that he can. I hope he realizes that I really need him by me right now. I'm getting pulled every direction and I just need a break. I'm gonna have a horrible birthday. But that is no ones fault but the damn cops that about killed my parents. I don't think that I have ever felt so strongly about something like I do this. So help me god I will do what I need to help them out. I just need to go about this the right way you know. I'm about to go see if Brandon kicks me out of the bedroom or runs away from me again. I have to work in the morning and I need to get my head on and go to bed and do my job and keep my nose clean for Alex.
Goodnight and goodbye for now

-AZURE-