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I've been waiting all day for j00....
Actually yeah i've been waiting all day to get on the computer.. I hate school cause you gotta wait so long to get online.. and when you do get on at school its got all these gay stoppers so you can't get on things you want to...
Get out..... LEAVE///
I wanna get out of Australia, away from sydney... im so sick of it here... living here for 15 years doesn't do anything for brownie points.. -cough- anywhoo.. we might be moving next year.. and then when im 18 im moving to America to live with my Daika family..
Just a waste of time..
Waste of time hoping for things that wont happen...
I refuse to cry...
Over pity little things, or over nothing at all.. I mean// I'm sucha crybaby... I wanna cry now for no reason... I wanna scream and pull out myself.. maybe cut myself..
NO
I'm stronger than that...
It WONT happen..
I wont resort to cutting again
It fucked up my life..
It makes me more depressed than I already am..
Everytime I look at my wrist.... my legs.. I cry.. maybe it's why I wanna cry now...
I can't wear skirts ....
Cause they might reveal my scarred thighs....... like now... but I have a baggy jumper covering them..... so fat and ugly..
I forced myself to eat today... and when I did I looked so fat.. I felt fat....... I shouldn't be saying this but.. its so true.. I look at myself and I see fat..... It makes me sick.. sick to the stomach....
LOL I said before I don't rant as much, and listen to me.. im like crying practically and yeah.. I'll leave... get out...... shut up.
Actually yeah i've been waiting all day to get on the computer.. I hate school cause you gotta wait so long to get online.. and when you do get on at school its got all these gay stoppers so you can't get on things you want to...
Get out..... LEAVE///
I wanna get out of Australia, away from sydney... im so sick of it here... living here for 15 years doesn't do anything for brownie points.. -cough- anywhoo.. we might be moving next year.. and then when im 18 im moving to America to live with my Daika family..
Just a waste of time..
Waste of time hoping for things that wont happen...
I refuse to cry...
Over pity little things, or over nothing at all.. I mean// I'm sucha crybaby... I wanna cry now for no reason... I wanna scream and pull out myself.. maybe cut myself..
NO
I'm stronger than that...
It WONT happen..
I wont resort to cutting again
It fucked up my life..
It makes me more depressed than I already am..
Everytime I look at my wrist.... my legs.. I cry.. maybe it's why I wanna cry now...
I can't wear skirts ....
Cause they might reveal my scarred thighs....... like now... but I have a baggy jumper covering them..... so fat and ugly..
I forced myself to eat today... and when I did I looked so fat.. I felt fat....... I shouldn't be saying this but.. its so true.. I look at myself and I see fat..... It makes me sick.. sick to the stomach....
LOL I said before I don't rant as much, and listen to me.. im like crying practically and yeah.. I'll leave... get out...... shut up.