Did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there?
I will give you a moment to get over the shock of seeing an update from me. *waits* Okay, hello! =P Hahaha, once upon a time an update from me would have been almost annoying, I posted so often. But, that's life! Things change. =)
So, I decided I'll post up more often, get back into my habit of writing. I liked doing it. I guess I went through a phase where I needed to stop and sort everything out in my head. But, I like to write, and why should I have to think these things through alone? Therefore, *post* =P
Man, it really has been a while. Where to start, where to start? Hahahaha, it makes it seem like I have something interesting to say. Not really, just a little bit of something. Let's start with my last head ache. His name starts with an "M" and ends with an "ichael". Difficult to figure out, I know, but if you guess "Michael" you would be right! Argh! I swear this is the last time I rant about him on LJ -.- Looking back it seems like an obsession, and he probably partly was, but it bothers me to have so much on here about him. So, I'll keep it quick and to the point, ne? Well, I've been musing, sometimes with Andy, about what to do in regards to him. And as I had pointed out to me, and come to see myself, a million times, I had to really think about how I felt. But, I sort of always hit a wall in my thought process, so I ended up going in circles with what I was thinking and came up with nothing in the end. I didn't know whether to try and see if I could figure out if we could get together again, or just drop it. I mused over it many times. But, I've been talking to him lately, and it suddenly hit me...I don't feel the same way anymore. Whatever it was, it faded. I can't keep that kind of affection alive by myself, I need help, and I was getting none, so it's ebbing. I can't say it's completely gone, maybe not yet, but I am at the point where I can calmly decide to let go. And I have. My cousin told me once that it helps to write a letter to the person. So, I did. I cried whatever I had left in me, I wrote everything I once felt and still felt and I said goodbye like I never really could. I feel a lot better, and world holds promise to me again. I can't wait to see how life makes up for this. I know I asked for a guy, but next time, someone better, okay? I only accept up-grades, NO down-grades. =)
Alright! Moving right along. I'm done classes. Done. DONE. ;_; It's such a beautiful thing! Man, I've been itching to be free since the first day of class! This year was kind of really crap, now that I think about it. =/ Obviously it had its good points, but on the whole I'd say it was pretty wack. First year has been the best thus far, so third year better be good or I'm going to cry! I might even consider applying to Ryerson for Engligh. =/ Hahahaha, nah. I, believe it or not!, actually like York. =) I'm gonna miss it, especially in the Spring. In the Merry Month of May that place is so lovely. I didn't mind being there last year at all, the spring time of youth was a heavy scent in the air, almost literally, we have some great smelling tress =P But yeah! It was real pretty, plus...just being outside in the lovely warm sun...mmmmm. Hahahaha. Maybe it's cuz I'm a summer baby, or maybe it's just my South American blood, but I adore the sun. I love summer and it's crazy warmth. It's the bestest! Autumn doesn't have JACK on summer! Spring is nice too, though, I can give it props for trying. =P But, anyway! Get back to the topic at hand! Classes are DONE LIKE DINNER. Heh heh B)
Also, I'm never taking Japanese again. Ever. Well, maybe if it was not for marks. I swear, everything I take for fun loses its fun-ness after it becomes a hard core class. Japanese got serious and I couldn't do it anymore. I lost my love for it and it became a nightmare. It happened to so many kids in my class though, we all suffered through it. Thus, I only passed with a 60 -.-;;;; That sucks ASS. It really messed with my gpa too, damnit. So, yeah, totally NOT doing that to myself again next year. Hell no. It makes me kind of sad though. I mean, the people in the classes are awesome. It takes a certain type of person to take a Japanese language course in the first place, so we all have a few things in common and we can all get along. Plus it's language, so there's more interacting than most tutorials and we mix a lot more, thus making friends! =D By the end of the year we're always joking around/hanging out and having fun as a big group, it's wicked! It's kind of like an AN feel, only on a smaller scale, of course. =P That, I will really miss. The JP kids are always really nice, funny and fun, but I'm not going to kill myself and my mark for that. I'll just hang out with the people I already know on my own time. =P
What else? Well, I need a job. Again. ^_^; *SIGH* Stupid money-based world. But, since I had my last job, I have become rather materialistic. I want/need a lot of things I didn't really think about before. Suddenly I really want more clothes, shoes and books. That all costs cash money! I need to get PAID, son. So, I think I'll call up the ol' Super Store...and ask my old manager for a reference. Hahaha, you thought I was gonna say I'd ask for my old job! Haha, no. I'm just gonna ask if she'll reference me and then look else where. I really wanna go somewhere uniformed, though. I don't have to worry about getting what to wear, and don't have to spend money on new outfits for work. So, you heard of any place hiring? ^_^;
ANIME NORTH!!!! Bwahahaha, I know I've got your attention now! Heh heh heh, it's SO SOON. Only 36 days away! :| Isn't that crazy? I haven't started on JACK. I really need to step it up. -.- I'm worried about my Fai cosplay, I suck at making things and that jacket is gonna be a pain. I also have to make his weapon. -.- Depending on my cash flow, or lack there of, I might only make that cosplay. I could just reuse my Kenshin cosplay, and I was thinking of just chilling out one day in a female bandit keith cosplay. =P I'm not gonna lie, I just wanna walk around with a flag on my head with an awesome excuse to say "in America." ;) hahahaha, I'm really looking forward to it though! It's like a pilgrimage. Where all the nerds go and worship nothing, but instead collect to spread the love of anime/manga, as well as love in general. =D I'm really looking forward to spending the night over there too! We should totally abuse the right to the pool, and then hit the bar. ;) Bwahahaha, it will be win!! Yeah, I can practically feel that AN "home" feeling...man, I can't wait! :D
Finally, how about some music? Andy if you are reading this, PLEASE LISTEN TO THIS SONG! :| It's called "Corazon sin cara"by Prince Royce. It is, obviously, in Spanish. It's really lovely and sweet. I really like the lyrics, it makes me feel happy. Unfortunately, I can't really recommend it to many, cuz they won't understand what it's saying, but if you like Spanish music in general, you'll like it. It has a nice classic beat and the vocalist has a good voice. =) And if not, I would also like to advertise "Savior" by the Chilli Peppers. =) I can think of a few more I'd like to shamelessly plug, but I know two is already a long shot. =P Well, I hope you enjoy them, and actually listen in the first place. ^_^;
And with that! I shall bid you a good night! I stayed up much later than I wanted to to post this. Who knows if I would have done it later? My mood is a fickle thing. =P Thus, goodnight my friends! Enjoy the increasingly lovely weather, and watch out for rainbows, since there are bound to be some now. I really love rainbows. I know this is random, but whenever I'm feeling down, I remember the times that I've seen them and I remember "promise", there's promise in life that God is reminding me of, and has yet to see me fulfill. It's kind of lame, but that's my thought. ^_^; Anyway!!! Enjoy the day, cuz today is always the most enjoyable day. =) Take care <3
So, I decided I'll post up more often, get back into my habit of writing. I liked doing it. I guess I went through a phase where I needed to stop and sort everything out in my head. But, I like to write, and why should I have to think these things through alone? Therefore, *post* =P
Man, it really has been a while. Where to start, where to start? Hahahaha, it makes it seem like I have something interesting to say. Not really, just a little bit of something. Let's start with my last head ache. His name starts with an "M" and ends with an "ichael". Difficult to figure out, I know, but if you guess "Michael" you would be right! Argh! I swear this is the last time I rant about him on LJ -.- Looking back it seems like an obsession, and he probably partly was, but it bothers me to have so much on here about him. So, I'll keep it quick and to the point, ne? Well, I've been musing, sometimes with Andy, about what to do in regards to him. And as I had pointed out to me, and come to see myself, a million times, I had to really think about how I felt. But, I sort of always hit a wall in my thought process, so I ended up going in circles with what I was thinking and came up with nothing in the end. I didn't know whether to try and see if I could figure out if we could get together again, or just drop it. I mused over it many times. But, I've been talking to him lately, and it suddenly hit me...I don't feel the same way anymore. Whatever it was, it faded. I can't keep that kind of affection alive by myself, I need help, and I was getting none, so it's ebbing. I can't say it's completely gone, maybe not yet, but I am at the point where I can calmly decide to let go. And I have. My cousin told me once that it helps to write a letter to the person. So, I did. I cried whatever I had left in me, I wrote everything I once felt and still felt and I said goodbye like I never really could. I feel a lot better, and world holds promise to me again. I can't wait to see how life makes up for this. I know I asked for a guy, but next time, someone better, okay? I only accept up-grades, NO down-grades. =)
Alright! Moving right along. I'm done classes. Done. DONE. ;_; It's such a beautiful thing! Man, I've been itching to be free since the first day of class! This year was kind of really crap, now that I think about it. =/ Obviously it had its good points, but on the whole I'd say it was pretty wack. First year has been the best thus far, so third year better be good or I'm going to cry! I might even consider applying to Ryerson for Engligh. =/ Hahahaha, nah. I, believe it or not!, actually like York. =) I'm gonna miss it, especially in the Spring. In the Merry Month of May that place is so lovely. I didn't mind being there last year at all, the spring time of youth was a heavy scent in the air, almost literally, we have some great smelling tress =P But yeah! It was real pretty, plus...just being outside in the lovely warm sun...mmmmm. Hahahaha. Maybe it's cuz I'm a summer baby, or maybe it's just my South American blood, but I adore the sun. I love summer and it's crazy warmth. It's the bestest! Autumn doesn't have JACK on summer! Spring is nice too, though, I can give it props for trying. =P But, anyway! Get back to the topic at hand! Classes are DONE LIKE DINNER. Heh heh B)
Also, I'm never taking Japanese again. Ever. Well, maybe if it was not for marks. I swear, everything I take for fun loses its fun-ness after it becomes a hard core class. Japanese got serious and I couldn't do it anymore. I lost my love for it and it became a nightmare. It happened to so many kids in my class though, we all suffered through it. Thus, I only passed with a 60 -.-;;;; That sucks ASS. It really messed with my gpa too, damnit. So, yeah, totally NOT doing that to myself again next year. Hell no. It makes me kind of sad though. I mean, the people in the classes are awesome. It takes a certain type of person to take a Japanese language course in the first place, so we all have a few things in common and we can all get along. Plus it's language, so there's more interacting than most tutorials and we mix a lot more, thus making friends! =D By the end of the year we're always joking around/hanging out and having fun as a big group, it's wicked! It's kind of like an AN feel, only on a smaller scale, of course. =P That, I will really miss. The JP kids are always really nice, funny and fun, but I'm not going to kill myself and my mark for that. I'll just hang out with the people I already know on my own time. =P
What else? Well, I need a job. Again. ^_^; *SIGH* Stupid money-based world. But, since I had my last job, I have become rather materialistic. I want/need a lot of things I didn't really think about before. Suddenly I really want more clothes, shoes and books. That all costs cash money! I need to get PAID, son. So, I think I'll call up the ol' Super Store...and ask my old manager for a reference. Hahaha, you thought I was gonna say I'd ask for my old job! Haha, no. I'm just gonna ask if she'll reference me and then look else where. I really wanna go somewhere uniformed, though. I don't have to worry about getting what to wear, and don't have to spend money on new outfits for work. So, you heard of any place hiring? ^_^;
ANIME NORTH!!!! Bwahahaha, I know I've got your attention now! Heh heh heh, it's SO SOON. Only 36 days away! :| Isn't that crazy? I haven't started on JACK. I really need to step it up. -.- I'm worried about my Fai cosplay, I suck at making things and that jacket is gonna be a pain. I also have to make his weapon. -.- Depending on my cash flow, or lack there of, I might only make that cosplay. I could just reuse my Kenshin cosplay, and I was thinking of just chilling out one day in a female bandit keith cosplay. =P I'm not gonna lie, I just wanna walk around with a flag on my head with an awesome excuse to say "in America." ;) hahahaha, I'm really looking forward to it though! It's like a pilgrimage. Where all the nerds go and worship nothing, but instead collect to spread the love of anime/manga, as well as love in general. =D I'm really looking forward to spending the night over there too! We should totally abuse the right to the pool, and then hit the bar. ;) Bwahahaha, it will be win!! Yeah, I can practically feel that AN "home" feeling...man, I can't wait! :D
Finally, how about some music? Andy if you are reading this, PLEASE LISTEN TO THIS SONG! :| It's called "Corazon sin cara"by Prince Royce. It is, obviously, in Spanish. It's really lovely and sweet. I really like the lyrics, it makes me feel happy. Unfortunately, I can't really recommend it to many, cuz they won't understand what it's saying, but if you like Spanish music in general, you'll like it. It has a nice classic beat and the vocalist has a good voice. =) And if not, I would also like to advertise "Savior" by the Chilli Peppers. =) I can think of a few more I'd like to shamelessly plug, but I know two is already a long shot. =P Well, I hope you enjoy them, and actually listen in the first place. ^_^;
And with that! I shall bid you a good night! I stayed up much later than I wanted to to post this. Who knows if I would have done it later? My mood is a fickle thing. =P Thus, goodnight my friends! Enjoy the increasingly lovely weather, and watch out for rainbows, since there are bound to be some now. I really love rainbows. I know this is random, but whenever I'm feeling down, I remember the times that I've seen them and I remember "promise", there's promise in life that God is reminding me of, and has yet to see me fulfill. It's kind of lame, but that's my thought. ^_^; Anyway!!! Enjoy the day, cuz today is always the most enjoyable day. =) Take care <3