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I'm short venting again. Soph, I know what you mean and I know how you feel.
(this is somewhat directed towards certain people, which is why it's public)
I'M NOT LOOKING FOR SYMPATHY! This is just my venting of truth.
I have felt lonely this summer. Besides the time that I'm with my parents, AJ, Emma, Bekah, Shaun, and Lauren. Honestly, I think those are the only people who really care about me. Well, not the only people, there are some who have been busy this summer and that's alright. But lately, some friends have been having parties, etc, and leaving me out. If I call them and ask if they want to come over and hang out or swim, there's always an excuse. I'm sick and tired of it. I really don't care about popularity, but I care about whether or not the friends I do have care about me. Which isn't really going too well right now, with some.
I'm a really nice, trustworthy, and even funny person once you get to know me, and I thought that was good enough . . apparently not.
I'm not sure where I'm going to fit in next year; maybe it's time that I make a few new friends. I'm not going to forget about other friends, I just think that I need to meet some new people, see who's accepting. Maybe some of the people that will be in yearbook with me, or hang out with some of the freshman and not act like a bitch / jerk towards them, like we know some upperclassmen will. I know what it feels like to be a lost and confused freshman.
I'll still have to put up with that backstabbing bitch, though. She hardly knows me, yet she chooses to entertain herself by spreading rumors about me, the so called "ugly loser", and really finds that funny. Shut the fuck up, and leave me alone. If you don't like me (though I've hardly ever talked to you in my life), don't fucking judge me. Do something better with your life.