today
today is the last of several days that have been kind of sad... not really considering the fact that they didnt have to be sad ... they just were... its a sad thing when you can't really control your hormones... because no matter how hard you try... they always find away to sneak in some tears or some angry words or something utterly stupid and undefined then you're left to figure out who the helll you've been for the past few days and appologizing to the people that you love... its funny how that works it is... anyway ... seven months to go... i'm getting married... things are moving along and i had a wedding crisis already... wow.. is all that i can say... you know? i never really considered this overload of sensation... you know... i fail to communicate with myself sometimes.. and think for a second maybe every one can read my mind.. for i sure wish they could... blah blah blah.... i dont really know what i am saying at the moment i dont know how to put the thoughts in my head onto the paper...