HOW DID TIME GO
MAN, i looked up and here the time is exactly one month to the day .. from the last time i posted anything... i feel like i have been suffocating... and the cause would mainly be me i guess....hell if i know... but there are somethings that i do know actually... here is a list... 1. i miss my friends...Akoni, jay, audrey, nikki, james, travis, elissa, don(who moved to the phillipines without me)... well.. i guess this is the miss my family section really, all of these people fall under the really cool and close to my heart catagory.. so if you're on this list.. then note that i haven't been staying away because i want to... but because i have no real means of communication... and nearly no money...i have no car... on borrowed gas and borrowed vehicle...i'm trying to respect adam's property as much as i can...i'm going stir crazy really... there are so many things that i want to do... anyhow...
2. i miss dancing... i miss performing... i still want to start that band i was talking about... any takers???
3. i need a second job...ANY SUGGESTIONS???
4. i need my own space ... a space that i know is mine... a space that i can create and call home... i feel so lost ... and it's not anyone's fault..i just don't know how i ended up here.. FUCK
5. i have a big ass list of shit to do and not enough time to do it.
6. i have a big ASS
7. and ITS GROWING> LARGER!
8. i want to go be with my family more...
9. i'm begining to get be sad... and i don't want to be
SO... here.. i am ... trying my damn hardest to get myself organized and under control.. counting the days until i get my car back and this accident bullshit is over.. the lesson in this was too horrible and fucking tiring to describe and i wont even waste my breath doing so... my little beacon for help , peace and stillness has been deployed... know that in my heart there is a place for you...for ever...be gentle with yourselves.. and do what you dream of..hopefully none of your dreams are sadistic or corrupt otherwise..only dream what you dream and live the love...
2. i miss dancing... i miss performing... i still want to start that band i was talking about... any takers???
3. i need a second job...ANY SUGGESTIONS???
4. i need my own space ... a space that i know is mine... a space that i can create and call home... i feel so lost ... and it's not anyone's fault..i just don't know how i ended up here.. FUCK
5. i have a big ass list of shit to do and not enough time to do it.
6. i have a big ASS
7. and ITS GROWING> LARGER!
8. i want to go be with my family more...
9. i'm begining to get be sad... and i don't want to be
SO... here.. i am ... trying my damn hardest to get myself organized and under control.. counting the days until i get my car back and this accident bullshit is over.. the lesson in this was too horrible and fucking tiring to describe and i wont even waste my breath doing so... my little beacon for help , peace and stillness has been deployed... know that in my heart there is a place for you...for ever...be gentle with yourselves.. and do what you dream of..hopefully none of your dreams are sadistic or corrupt otherwise..only dream what you dream and live the love...