wake me up when september ends...
I'm soooo stressed. I heart three day weekends. For the past week or so, my days have started at 7:45 for Calculus, or 8 for piano rehearsal and haven't ended until i pass out at one in the morning trying to finish theory homework. My classes other than calculus aren't too hard, they're just friggin time consuming.
Senior year has gotten better. I think the senior patio has the power to brighten anyone's spirits. As crappy the furniture is, it's pretty neat to eat with all my favorite seniors in our own space with all the little underclassmen looking out and wanting to be one of us. I feel sooo much more comfortable there than i did when i was trying to fit in with the black girls. I'm starting to get to the point where i really don't care what people at school think. If they want to say i'm a "white girl" whatever... i know i'm not.
I took my braids down the other day. I'm not sure if i'm liking my fro anymore. Today, when i was running into school to get to sunrise Calculus, i ran into one of the trees on the school porch and my hair got stuck in a branch. All these little middle schoolers laughed. I feel really not-so-cute, especially since all my friends are gorgeous.
The concerto competition is Thursday. I've had three rehearsals with my pianist and three more next week. I think it will be okay. I feel really comfortable with the Walton. it doesn't feel like a transcription... it's really... real.
My new goals for the year are to:
1) make a B in AP Calculus
2) Make a five on the AP Theory test
3) get accepted to all of the schools i'm applying to
4) lose weight (15+ lbs)
Nothing too new or surprising. I could make goals like "get a boyfriend" or "practice six hours everyday"... but that would be stupid and it just wouldn't happen. And another thing, when i graduate, i'm not coming back to school for at least six months after the next school starts. i love last year's seniors, but they're at school so much, i never miss them. so they might as well still go to our school.
anyway, i'm out <3 Nia