Me... in a different way
And so I realize... that I have lost 5 pounds over
the course of 5 or so days. Wow... I can imagine my muscles
turning into water... I believe my body thinks I'm
anorexic... and even if I have to get overweight to convince my
body it is not... I will. but my stomach has gone in
significantly... so I will not complain.
My Teeth:
I will complain, however, of the alignment of my teeth. While brushing my teeth this morning, I noticed that my teeth... had moved a bit. Space created between my molars for the spacers... had to come from somewhere... and so it seems that the rest of my teeth in front... just squished in. I have heard from more than one dentist and orthodontist that my teeth are big for my jaw. =__= it runs in the family.
I have four wisdom teeth... Why can't I have been born a bit more evolved than my mom, at least? She had no wisdom teeth. My dad has two lower wisdom teeth. My sister and I both have four. Whichever grandparent we got these teeth from.. I will talk to them about it later after I am dead, if I still care.
Meh, so I have problems chewing... =__= right now, it seems pretty minimal though... I can eat tofu.... Actually... I can eat tofu even without my teeth. I was known in my family to swallow large quantities of tofu without involving teeth.. at all. As long as people don't try and make me laugh in the process... I'm fine with it. If they do... I'll just say, that it is painful.
School news:
I am almost done with my summer homework... half a page left... and then typing it up onto an email. Goody. *sarcasm*
I am not excited about Homecoming. I wish it were far... far... away. Dresses are not becoming on me... And the idea of wearing pants to homecoming does not appeal at all... But the idea of not going... makes me cringe all the same.. I guess going without a partner was probably always expected of me, but it can hurt... I wish I didn't care about social strands and petty things in life. When I go to college.... They pretty much start all over again.
I have been given a new locker partner... People tell me they feel sorry for me - aka, they say she has a nasty personality. I'm not sure whether I'm happy or not, but she has neat handwriting. Let's just hope that she keeps her stuff neat too... If she doesn't... well, I'm doomed for the rest of Highschool. @_@
This year my ID.... has a terrible monster printed on it. It's enough for me to say... "What is that!?" but I'm sure you all think I'm exaggerating. Everyone does. Until they see the picture. They see a dimple on my face... (A huge dent, really, I admit) and they go like,
"What's that on your face!?" I can't help but want to say... "What's that in your head?" But that's mean, so I never have... Or it may be that I have never been able to say something quite wittily in return. Just adding one stress releasing punch when I get home for my punching bag.
My schedule is disappointing. I am unable to take Maya... because the teacher left. Maya is the 3D animation used in Lord of the Rings... I was looking forward to having at least one class of that... but no... but Ceramics is okay too... as long as I don't decapitate myself with the potter's wheel in the morning... I have it at 7:30 a.m. Joy... But I am looking forward to what demented clay things I make. I think I will dedicate each one to my internet friends... >> each one on how demented or pretty it is. Or: if it somehow reminds me of Yaoi... or laziness... or melting faces.. =__= (You guys know who you are.. <<;)
Poetry and sidetrackness:
I am looking to enter into some poetry contests.. My first poetry thing was a success. They said it was qualified to be published, but I didn't send the thing in, so I dunno if it got published anyway... and for the fact that I wrote it under my dad's name cuz I wasn't old enough maybe makes it a failure, but in my eyes, that was perfect. A semi finalist at poetry.com made me happy. :D Even if I wrote the poem in under 3 minutes... to vent my feelings......... Gonna do it in other places now... under MY name... I dun want my dad to get all the credit! >_< But I dunno if I can do it on purpose.. If I enter, going for a win, I never usually get it. Let's hope I'm pleasantly surprised, and I will try to be optimistic. I will spare people of my religiousness... >_< But since I'm a believer.. I should start acting like one, even if I'm not an evangelist. Which makes me wonder why Evangelion was called Evangelion... o__o I have a vague guess....
Evangelness:
Side tracking to a side story that probaby goes with Evangelion. I dunno if it goes with the Bible. I never really read the Genesis properly.. >>
When God created Adam, he was lonely, so God created Lilith from the same dust from which Adam was molded. But they quarrelled; Adam [the proverbial domineering male] wished to rule over Lilith. But Lilith [a militant feminist] was also proud and willful, claiming equality with Adam because she was created from the same dust. She left Adam and fled the Garden. God sent three angels in pursuit of Lilith. They caught her and ordered her to return to Adam. She refused, and said that she would henceforth weaken and kill little children, infants and babes. The angels overpowered her, and she promised that if the mother hung an amulet over the baby bearing the names of the three angels, she would stay away from that home. So they let her go, and God created Eve to be Adam's mate [created from Adam's rib, so that she couldn't claim equality]. And ever since, Lilith flies around the world, howling her hatred of mankind through the night, and vowing vengeance because of the shabby treatment she had received from Adam. She is also called "The Howling One."
Apparently the story above was from the Old Bible and not from the Genesis (I looked it up) and when I read the Old Testament (and the new testament for that matter) I just can't help but ask God why men must rule over women. It has been that way in history, in fact, it still is. Never seen a female president? Don't worry, I haven't either. The explanation is that it was because it was in that time period. Well, God could have created it differently. Maybe it was because it is hard for two equal beings to exist peacefully. I won't know until I ask, and I hope that will be a long time in coming. That doesn't change my love for Jesus though... (Lookie me, I said I'd spare from my religious shambling and already I'm going on and about...)
Meandering:
It is funny how you can meander from subject to subject. o__o from poetry to optimism to religion to Evangelion back to religion. and how I meander about subjects.... It's interesting, really... That's how I noticed it is between conversations... How boring would the world be without speech.
Today I feel... different. Looking on life on a different way. I dunno.
Why is it that I already feel sleepy? T_T It's 8:38 p.m.... Damn jet lag. How is it even possible to get jet lag from just travelling across the US? =__=
Meh.... 'meh' is my new favorite "word." Right up there with 'eh.' But I have realized I like 'eh' better. It's shorter and easier to type.. xD
Longest entry I think I've written with only words in a while. Or maybe the longest... I dunno.
My Teeth:
I will complain, however, of the alignment of my teeth. While brushing my teeth this morning, I noticed that my teeth... had moved a bit. Space created between my molars for the spacers... had to come from somewhere... and so it seems that the rest of my teeth in front... just squished in. I have heard from more than one dentist and orthodontist that my teeth are big for my jaw. =__= it runs in the family.
I have four wisdom teeth... Why can't I have been born a bit more evolved than my mom, at least? She had no wisdom teeth. My dad has two lower wisdom teeth. My sister and I both have four. Whichever grandparent we got these teeth from.. I will talk to them about it later after I am dead, if I still care.
Meh, so I have problems chewing... =__= right now, it seems pretty minimal though... I can eat tofu.... Actually... I can eat tofu even without my teeth. I was known in my family to swallow large quantities of tofu without involving teeth.. at all. As long as people don't try and make me laugh in the process... I'm fine with it. If they do... I'll just say, that it is painful.
School news:
I am almost done with my summer homework... half a page left... and then typing it up onto an email. Goody. *sarcasm*
I am not excited about Homecoming. I wish it were far... far... away. Dresses are not becoming on me... And the idea of wearing pants to homecoming does not appeal at all... But the idea of not going... makes me cringe all the same.. I guess going without a partner was probably always expected of me, but it can hurt... I wish I didn't care about social strands and petty things in life. When I go to college.... They pretty much start all over again.
I have been given a new locker partner... People tell me they feel sorry for me - aka, they say she has a nasty personality. I'm not sure whether I'm happy or not, but she has neat handwriting. Let's just hope that she keeps her stuff neat too... If she doesn't... well, I'm doomed for the rest of Highschool. @_@
This year my ID.... has a terrible monster printed on it. It's enough for me to say... "What is that!?" but I'm sure you all think I'm exaggerating. Everyone does. Until they see the picture. They see a dimple on my face... (A huge dent, really, I admit) and they go like,
"What's that on your face!?" I can't help but want to say... "What's that in your head?" But that's mean, so I never have... Or it may be that I have never been able to say something quite wittily in return. Just adding one stress releasing punch when I get home for my punching bag.
My schedule is disappointing. I am unable to take Maya... because the teacher left. Maya is the 3D animation used in Lord of the Rings... I was looking forward to having at least one class of that... but no... but Ceramics is okay too... as long as I don't decapitate myself with the potter's wheel in the morning... I have it at 7:30 a.m. Joy... But I am looking forward to what demented clay things I make. I think I will dedicate each one to my internet friends... >> each one on how demented or pretty it is. Or: if it somehow reminds me of Yaoi... or laziness... or melting faces.. =__= (You guys know who you are.. <<;)
Poetry and sidetrackness:
I am looking to enter into some poetry contests.. My first poetry thing was a success. They said it was qualified to be published, but I didn't send the thing in, so I dunno if it got published anyway... and for the fact that I wrote it under my dad's name cuz I wasn't old enough maybe makes it a failure, but in my eyes, that was perfect. A semi finalist at poetry.com made me happy. :D Even if I wrote the poem in under 3 minutes... to vent my feelings......... Gonna do it in other places now... under MY name... I dun want my dad to get all the credit! >_< But I dunno if I can do it on purpose.. If I enter, going for a win, I never usually get it. Let's hope I'm pleasantly surprised, and I will try to be optimistic. I will spare people of my religiousness... >_< But since I'm a believer.. I should start acting like one, even if I'm not an evangelist. Which makes me wonder why Evangelion was called Evangelion... o__o I have a vague guess....
Evangelness:
Side tracking to a side story that probaby goes with Evangelion. I dunno if it goes with the Bible. I never really read the Genesis properly.. >>
When God created Adam, he was lonely, so God created Lilith from the same dust from which Adam was molded. But they quarrelled; Adam [the proverbial domineering male] wished to rule over Lilith. But Lilith [a militant feminist] was also proud and willful, claiming equality with Adam because she was created from the same dust. She left Adam and fled the Garden. God sent three angels in pursuit of Lilith. They caught her and ordered her to return to Adam. She refused, and said that she would henceforth weaken and kill little children, infants and babes. The angels overpowered her, and she promised that if the mother hung an amulet over the baby bearing the names of the three angels, she would stay away from that home. So they let her go, and God created Eve to be Adam's mate [created from Adam's rib, so that she couldn't claim equality]. And ever since, Lilith flies around the world, howling her hatred of mankind through the night, and vowing vengeance because of the shabby treatment she had received from Adam. She is also called "The Howling One."
Apparently the story above was from the Old Bible and not from the Genesis (I looked it up) and when I read the Old Testament (and the new testament for that matter) I just can't help but ask God why men must rule over women. It has been that way in history, in fact, it still is. Never seen a female president? Don't worry, I haven't either. The explanation is that it was because it was in that time period. Well, God could have created it differently. Maybe it was because it is hard for two equal beings to exist peacefully. I won't know until I ask, and I hope that will be a long time in coming. That doesn't change my love for Jesus though... (Lookie me, I said I'd spare from my religious shambling and already I'm going on and about...)
Meandering:
It is funny how you can meander from subject to subject. o__o from poetry to optimism to religion to Evangelion back to religion. and how I meander about subjects.... It's interesting, really... That's how I noticed it is between conversations... How boring would the world be without speech.
Today I feel... different. Looking on life on a different way. I dunno.
Why is it that I already feel sleepy? T_T It's 8:38 p.m.... Damn jet lag. How is it even possible to get jet lag from just travelling across the US? =__=
Meh.... 'meh' is my new favorite "word." Right up there with 'eh.' But I have realized I like 'eh' better. It's shorter and easier to type.. xD
Longest entry I think I've written with only words in a while. Or maybe the longest... I dunno.