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So. I figured feeling somewhat more sane again deserved a post of it's own.
To be clear, being here still sucks and I'm sick of it. I absolutely loathe having to stick around another day, and then another, and another one after that. But I'm going to make this year count, going to make some memories so that I can think back and consider it worth my while. The people who are here are certainly deserving of my time, but since I chose them in the first place, that is to be expected.
I will try and eat more regularly. Half the time I just feel too sick to stomach anything, and when I don't it turns out I spent too much money on other things or on crappy food on the way someplace so my body stops growling at me. But like I said, I'll try to fix that. I know it's not good for me, and while I keep saying I'll take care of myself, I really could be doing a better job.
Now, there's honestly little I wouldn't do to get from where I am to where I want to be. I'll see what I can come up with. Waiting and having faith is nice and occasionally challenging, but it's not enough. At least not for me.
That is all.