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A little worn around the edges.
Staying out late to be surrounded by other peoples energy... sad, tired and drunk to their eyeballs, I would keep this company to ward off my thoughts tonight.
My uncle was stabbed twelve times in the neck last week. Two aunts and an uncle with cancer. Another heart wrenching disconnection with my un-boyfriend, Josh.
It's life, sure. I know that. I'm just pushed to the edge right now. It's hard for me to get up in the morning feeling happy about a rat race where nobody fucking wins.
If there were a 'heaven' and a 'god' I could justify this struggle. It would be so much easier with a cop out security blanket... Maybe if I didn't know that I could convince myself, but I do, and I can't and I feel like I'm whining about all the 'dark blackness of life. Tear.'
I'm a happy person. I'm happy in my life. I love my family, my friends and the area I live in. I work too much, so be it. I know this rapid in the river of life will pass, I just needed to talk myself through it.
Staying out late to be surrounded by other peoples energy... sad, tired and drunk to their eyeballs, I would keep this company to ward off my thoughts tonight.
My uncle was stabbed twelve times in the neck last week. Two aunts and an uncle with cancer. Another heart wrenching disconnection with my un-boyfriend, Josh.
It's life, sure. I know that. I'm just pushed to the edge right now. It's hard for me to get up in the morning feeling happy about a rat race where nobody fucking wins.
If there were a 'heaven' and a 'god' I could justify this struggle. It would be so much easier with a cop out security blanket... Maybe if I didn't know that I could convince myself, but I do, and I can't and I feel like I'm whining about all the 'dark blackness of life. Tear.'
I'm a happy person. I'm happy in my life. I love my family, my friends and the area I live in. I work too much, so be it. I know this rapid in the river of life will pass, I just needed to talk myself through it.